Until around 10:20 this morning I felt that most of “my” real world things were in hand. The preparation had been going smoothly though I did wonder about using the word “awry” the other day.
As I lay in bed before the alarm was due to go off, I thought that the only real problem I had was to put my underpants on the right way round when getting dressed in darkness. Later in the day some young person would ask me to strip to my pants and take X-rays of my spastic hip. We did not want to have a “professor pants” moment. I did not want unknowingly to advertise M&S.
As it turned out I could have put them on inside out with full impunity. It is a missed pants opportunity.
Now because of the unilateral and unnotified cancellation of an appointment a few more decisions arise. There is another early appointment for a full day of hospital based fun later in the week.
Do we need to telephone to confirm if it is still going ahead?
Do we do this the night before or call a little after 8AM before we leave the house the morning of the alleged appointment?
An ancillary line of thought is do I need to start exploring other contingencies for a hip operation in case this one falls through?.
I understand only too well that the universe does not owe me anything, that I have no “right” to surgery. It is at the kindness of the French exchequer. I do not believe in “deserving”. When I tried to get this sorted earlier in the year I met with many problems. Perhaps some more are starting now.
Is this the universe saying that I simply need to suck it up? That it is my karma to suffer from arthritis?
Or is this about patience and forbearance?
It looks like the whole of France is going into a another self-induced psychiatric meltdown. So who knows what is going to happen…They can lose the plot and badly so…They have volatility…
To me it is important to remain grounded especially with all these fancy highfalutin dreams…
Life here is pretty mundane; some would find it boring. Ideas notions and dreams are not the same thing as getting measured for some anti-thrombosis stockings like I just did.
I have learned by experiment that as a whole French timekeeping is loose and that an appointment is often written in the lightest of 4H pencil. I tend to take appointments as possibilities and not reliable fact.
I have another data point, milord.
All in all not a very satisfactory start to the day or the week…
Dreamyoga 