My Disappearance – Navalny –  Big Cheese – Cairo – South Kensington Dream – 28-03-2026

Here is this morning’s dream again with little or no obvious connection to real life here yesterday which we spent wallpapering.

The dream opens in England in and around London. Some kind of missive has gone out, been circulated, concerning my whereabouts. I have gone missing, disappeared and cannot be contacted. Nobody seems to know where I am nor how to get in touch. Tim, Tom and Susan are involved in the search all of whom are “important”. Tim and Sue have made inquiries concerning me but are unsatisfied with the answers. “He just disappeared” does not explain. Other people from the academic clan are involved in the investigation and some of them were known to me. Those involved are mostly of a similar age to me, like Paula, my peer group. Though there are others. The inquiry is largely London based. Although not huge there are questions to be answered that just won’t go away. There is a pendant question of “where did Alan disappear to and why?” There is very mild press and media interest brewing. They, the inquirers, don’t like loose ends. There is a time pressure to solve.

The scene changes and I am in a brightly lit wood / forest with Alexeï Navalny. It is a crisp winter morning and the cold makes dragon’s breath of our breathing. We are sat at a small very basic table on two old-school school chairs. On the table is an open bottle of vodka and two small glass tumblers each of which is partially filled. There is a small plate of gherkins and a large cheese in a round wood circular box like a Camembert. Navalny lifts the lid off the box and places the wax paper wrapped cheese onto a wooden cutting board. He gets a hunting knife out of an ankle scabbard and proceeds to cut the cheese into wedges. He pauses and we take a sip of our vodkas. He is discussing how cheeses can cause problems for other people. All his problems have come from upsetting big cheeses. When you think about it, it is nearly always people who are cheeses that cause problems for others. The reason we are in the wilderness, in exile, is cheese. Navalny reaches down into his knapsack and pulls out a rough-hewn rye bread. He says that he likes vodka, cheese and bread.

The scene changes and I pull up in my car into a very smart posh area of Cairo. The cars in the car park are all expensive and I am driving a black one. I get out and know that this is the posh, upmarket financial centre of Cairo. As yet it is not busy. I go into an upmarket “private” bank usually for high net worth individuals. It is well swish. I go to reception and am ushered off into a side room where I have a meeting with an expensively dressed woman who is wearing a hijab of fine expensive material. She is very classy. She has attached between her subtle noise piercing and ear a fine golden chain. She speaks very good accent free English. She wants to know why I want to open a bank account with them in Cairo. I say that my other bank and utilities have given my information out to others without asking my permission. They have done so at the request of others without checking with me first. This includes my bank in Paris. I am looking for a more personal and reliable service, based on trust. We shift into speaking French. She guides me though the application form which she fills in with a beautiful fountain pen. She says that the bank is very pleased to have me as a customer and that I will always be welcome in Cairo. Outside in the main marble hall of the bank customers are coming in.

The scene changes and I am in a kitchen of a British house. It is my parents’ house only it looks nothing like . The place is a bit of a mess, a shit tip. On the counter top is a Gaggia style coffee espresso machine. I make myself a coffee and one for the wife. She is with me but  I cannot see her. We drink the coffee.

The scene now changes to South Kensington. In a kind of arcade is a coffee shop come café. It is very urban, chic and trendy. Sat around the table are those ~ a decade younger than me. They are gossiping about me. There are Jason Laura and Camilla. They too have been wondering about my disappearance. There has been a lot of gossip and tittle tattle. It is a hot topic.

I walk in with the wife and sit down at the far end of a long table from them They looked surprised. I explain that they have been making a huge to-do about not a lot. I have not disappeared they have just not been aware of where I have been. For instance, we have not long come from South Wales where we have been drinking coffee at my parents’ house. I say that they have turned the whole thing into a massive spy-whodunnit-drama. They are embarrassed. It is well out of proportion.

The dream ends.

Eng – Viking – Fibre Optic Microscope – Chairman Mao – US Security Check Dream – 26-03-2026

Here is last night’s dreaming sequence. It is a hotch-potch and has no obvious explanation.

The dream opens in a Scandinavian wood. A large man with a deep dark ginger beard wearing a kilt is stood over a huge tree stump.  His chest is bare and his skin is white and hairless. He has tanned and big, freckled forearms. His name is Eng and he is one of the last masters of an ancient Danish martial art of Viking origin.

I greet Eng. I am wearing my usual combat trousers and am barefoot. I too am shirtless. We do some arm wrestling on the tree stump and Eng shows me some grappling moves as we lark about outside his cabin. We pick us some towels and dry off.

We go inside to his lab-workshop. On an optical table is a prototype we are working on it is a novel form of three dimensional imaging microscopy. It is based around an unclad optical fibre which uses the evanescent field to image. The idea is to switch polarisation states of the probe laser in the fibre core. By switching between fibre modes and polarisation we can modulate the external field penetration depth. Any light “outside” the fibre will get absorbed. This is measured as light return optical loss. After the short duration laser pulse has gone the fibre collects any fluorescence. This is a new imaging modality and with data processing offers a way of imaging in vivo tissue. We are trialling it on plants and intend it for brain tissue imaging. It is a way to get accurate chemical and biological data in Alzheimer patients. It is not simply structural. Because the fibre is very narrow diameter it can be inserted directly into living brain tissue without causing too much injury.

The scene changes and Eng and I are now at some research lab. It is an agricultural research lab where new techniques for farming are being developed. Today we are having a visit from  Chairman Mao. He has a deep interest in plant biology and is eager to see our institute and our new results. Mao arrives in a motorcade and is ushered into our lab. We show him around the greenhouse and then get him to look down the binocular eyepiece at images inside a plant stem with water and cells floating by. We project the images up onto a screen and everyone can see the flow of liquid along a living plant stem in real time and with very high optical resolution. Cells are visible.

The scene changes and I am in a car park. I am being stopped by two American security services men in black suits. They ask me what I have in the boot of my car. I say that I have a metal phial of element mass 258. They know I am joking. They get me to open the boot of my car. I show them the black high tech “briefcase” there. It opens to reveal a projector, a lap top, a USB memory stick, some documentation and a giveaway DVD information pack. They thumb through the documentation. It looks OK to them. I say that what is on the DVD is what I submitted to security vetting a week back. I am not going to get technical in the presentation because of the patent situation. The interaction is jocular with the security guys. They wave me on.

The dream ends….

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Mass number 258 corresponds to a transuranic element; Mendelevium has an isotope at this mass as do others.

“Mendelevium is a synthetic chemical element; it has symbol Md (formerly Mv) and atomic number 101. A metallic radioactive transuranium element in the actinide series, it is the first element by atomic number that currently cannot be produced in macroscopic quantities by neutron bombardment of lighter elements. It is the thirteenth actinide, the ninth transuranic element, and the first transfermium; it is named after Dmitri Mendeleev, the father of the periodic table.”

More Dream Data – Enough for a Thesis?

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Taking the dreams so far recorded for 2026.

There were 5213 words in March at an average of 521 words per dream.

There were 9627 words in February at an average of 642 words per dream.

Taken together the average is 594 words per dream.

Using that with the dream total of 137 dreams for 2025 that gives a word total ~ 81,000 words of dreams

This is a lot of dreaming, near thesis length for 2025 alone !!

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From the University of Sheffield web site for thesis length:

Word count

The University does not have any regulatory requirements governing the length of theses, but most faculties have established guidelines:

  • Arts and Humanities: 40,000 words (MPhil); 75,000 words (PhD)
  • Health: 40,000 words (MPhil); 75,000 words (PhD, MD)
  • Science: 40,000 words (MPhil); 80,000 words (PhD)
  • Social Sciences: 40,000 words (MPhil); 75,000-100,000 words (PhD)

The above word counts exclude footnotes, bibliography and appendices. Where there are no guidelines, students should consult the supervisor as to the length of thesis appropriate to the particular topic of research.

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Dream Data 2026 Update.

Here is my dream frequency data updated.

The average number of recorded dreams rounds up to 13 per month over this period.

There looks to be a drop off post hip operation {21-11-25}. But February was back with a bang.

March ’26  looks to be heading back towards average dream number.

The overall rate is heading for ~ 140 per year consistent with the 2025 total  but this is by way of a big extrapolation this early on in the year.

So maybe the dreaming is not slowing after all…..

Trajectories Converging – Old Tools

In the previous post I mentioned that much of the on-line presence of Venture Capital firms is unappealing to me, well they don’t work at Jurassic Park and have no need to appeal to dinosaurs. I am clearly not the intended audience nor would I fit any suitability criteria. There are a lot of things these days for which I am not in the intended audience. The great thing about daytime TV is you get age appropriate adverts for Seniors Life Insurance, Cruises, Cremation Plans and Incontinence Pants. There are a range of stair lifts and comfy chairs which assist you to stand at a grand a pop.

When we moved here we inherited a number of tools, a power washer, a heavy duty strimmer and a sit on mower. Each year they need just that bit more maintenance. We have nearly finished our first garden spring clean. The strimmer is getting very vibration heavy and the power washer had a weld fail on the jet-lance. These lances are around 80 euros. It would make more sense to get a power washer which is not coal fired and buy a modern one. The strimmer needs a bit more oomph than battery. The question is, “if we are leaving can we justify €2-300 for a new power washer or not?” If we downsize we will not need such a beast. Maybe it is simpler to rent one for a day. No more capex. The strimmer we need. I will use it spring summer and autumn. I can probably eke one or two more mows out of the sit on mower before taking it to the repair shop. That way we avoid the bottleneck of repairs which happens every year when people turn on their mowers for the first time. Turnaround time in March is six weeks; in late April it is three. This works between mows.

The old tools are perhaps telling us that it is time to move on, to pastures new.  Like us the tools are no longer spring chickens…

I get the feeling that the trajectories are converging towards a simple downsize and not a lot else. I can’t see any open doors.

At the moment the hedge guy is doing our hedges. They are massive. When he has finished we should be good to go for estate agent photos. We can see if anyone wants to buy or if we have an albatross.

It does not matter overly what my opinions are, nor what I may know. Certainly there are a lot of smart people in science and there is no need for the likes of me. There is no need, no demand. I am surplus.

It does look like the trajectories are converging and finding a minimum on the decision potential energy hypersurface. The dream rate has dropped. The subject matter is less mystical but the theme of retreat centre – teaching remains (ish).

I am due my second hip operation early summer. This means that, should they be able to get the pin from my prior hip repair out, I should have an operational left hip by autumn. I can’t really see me doing anything other than bimbling about in the house and garden in the near term. We shall try wallpapering for the first time soon!!

The signs for moving on seem to be increasing in frequency…

Now all we need is some clue as to where..


  • I had to add bimbling to the Word Dictionary.

Going Chaotic and Alternate Realities

A comedian once suggested that chaos could be putting Boris Johnson and an Aardvark whilst both on magic mushrooms into a sack. The result could be chaotic but it would be a controlled and contained chaos.  If you added some crystal meth and Katie Price things could get more interesting. I give away my UK nationality from time to time at the supermarket when I cajole “Boris” the supermarket trolley to go in the direction I seek. At the moment “leadership” in the USA is chaotic and whim based. The markets are volatile and Nero might have fun watching them burn were he able to play a violin.

The thing about the internet is that it too is volatile. Things can flood like a desert wadi after a sudden rain shower. One can rocket into viral public visibility and then disappear overnight. The story about yesterday’s news being tomorrow’s wrappers for fish and chips holds truck. All it might take to be famous for a nanosecond would be for some celeb influencer to name drop. There are journos who follow what they “like” on the internet. A single like or follow could result in a chaotic uncontrollable event. Were Princess Diana to like one of my dream posts…

It is difficult if not impossible to control what happens on the internet.

The internet is a kind of alternate reality which nevertheless impinges on day to day reality.

Yesterday following a thread I searched for Quantum Venture Capital. Quantum is a groovy word. Did you know that dishwasher tablets are quantum objects?? There are some under the sink in the kitchen. I wonder what is the dishwasher tablet Hamiltonian operator?

There are lot of people using this groovy word to name their businesses.

It is like when bellends use the phrase “laser focussed” when they mean “laser collimated” or “non-divergent”. Things get appropriated.

On my desk behind me is an arXiv paper written by a VC from “Quantonation” in which he discusses funding for quantum  start-ups.  I am kind of resisting reading it because it pertains to an alternate reality, one where people wear suits and go to important meetings. There is a weird familiarity.

I am unlikely to be star struck were I to drift across a wormhole into that universe. Most likely I would be ignored as being non-U, not welcome at the dinner table.

It is kind of funny to watch. When I look at the “teams” presented on many Venture Capital web sites I think yuck.. Really… I do not like the look of some of them and the blurb which accompanies is non-attractive veering towards some kind of AI based same-same authorship. They look cloned. I don’t see USPs.

It does not really matter what an old git like me thinks. It is off putting. You think, maybe. You take one look and think, nah. It is not a game of soldiers which looks attractive. It is an alternate dimension.

There is always a small yet finite possibility that some chaos could manifest into our bucolic little world…

You never know what might happen, what spanners the universe may yet have in its bag for chucking…

Far out…

Lisa Faulkner Dream Snippet 25-03-2026

Here is this morning’s dream snippet it is out of the blue.

The dream is set mostly in London. I am interacting with various people in a café which is more like a hang out come self help session. I am talking to one man in particular who is complaining about relationship problems. I say to him, “have you read the book by Lisa Faulkner?” He replies, no. I go on to say that she has some good advice for people in your situation. In the dream I think it odd that Lisa has cropped up.

The scene changes and I am at some kind of corporate do, event. There is a plenary and people are in groups. Again someone mentions a book by Lisa Faulker in a personal development situation. I think it odd and wonder why Lisa Faulkner is cropping up in my dreams.

The dream ends.

  • Lisa Faulkner is an English actress and winner of Celebrity Master Chef. She went on to marry the host. In real life she has an “energy”  which reminds me of someone I once knew, an Easterly Stalker.

It would be weird if Lisa has stumbled upon the blog.

Do I Have an Occult Readership?

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From Merriam Webster

occult

1: not revealed : secret

… deep subterranean occult jealousy …— J. C. Powys

2: not easily apprehended or understood : abstruse, mysterious

… occult matters like nuclear physics, radiation effects and the designing of rockets …— Robert Bendiner

3: hidden from view : concealed

occult underground passages

4: of or relating to supernatural or supernormal powers or practices or the knowledge of them

… the occult arts—astrology, palmistry, card reading …— Amy Fine Collins

occult practices

5: not manifest or detectable by clinical methods alone

occult carcinoma

also : not present in macroscopic amounts

occult blood in a stool

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WordPress provides limited statistics on the overt readership of this blog. These suggest that readership is low. I have not gone viral. I have some readers in the USA, Hong Kong, Singapore, China and Vietnam. There are a couple of visitors from blighty.

This is the only data I have about the readership of the blog. Given all the shit you see on TV and in the movies there has to be an outside chance that others read the blog, my occult audience. This is impossible to scale. In the limit Elon the barking mad might be reading…

In the realms of movies and sci-fi something may come out of this occult audience. I could be in a bar in Casablanca and get approached. Only I don’t go to bars. I don’t see many people with homeland security earpieces at Intermarché. There is the special needs woman whose medication varies and occasionally goes in for inpatient care. There is speedy Gonzales the fastest checkout in the West and there is the tiny Breton woman with her push cart who is there every Monday morning. I am on “bonjour” terms with a number of staff either in the supermarket or outside.

Last night I had more “subjective” evidence of a London based occult readership. Why they were in my consciousness I cannot say. Perhaps I need to join the checkout girl on one of her stays. The thing about occult readership is that they cannot be taken into consideration when it comes to decision making because in reality I do not know that they are there. They are occult to me.

It is only a complete idiot who makes any decisions based on anything occult…