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The Repair Theme and Technology

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There is a reasonable chance that I may be able to have two total hip replacements. Hopefully if that goes ahead it will be under a general anaesthetic. When I had my Titanium pin fitted, I was conscious, if drowsy as they had given me a spine injection. That was a bit PTSD.  I can still feel the reverberation in my skeleton as a memory.

I will be hooked up to technology.

Last night before dinner I was able to watch a short version of a total hip replacement operation on video on YouTube. It looked pretty gory and they use a mechanical hemispherical reamer to shape the hip socket. It was attached to a common or garden battery style drill. They also did extensive work with muscle and flesh retractors. There was the sound of mallet on metal and it looked pretty barbaric. Not an easy watch.

Technology has come a long way and any joint should last perhaps a couple of decades. They will see me out before clog-popping time, should they be fit-able and fitted.

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In a real sense my incarnation may be prolonged by modern technology. Maybe I should stop complaining about ‘phone use….

It brings to mind a whole new raft of karma, due to our success in medical technology. On a philosophical level I have some reservations about overly prolonging life. I am more convinced that so called cosmetic surgery for vanity is karmically bad. It is a form of self-harm and obsession. It is a way of reinforcing the folly and illusion of obsession with appearance and form. People pay to have others cut them in order to look more sexually attractive. This is not the behaviour of well-balanced people.

I am not sure that the surgeons are free of karma in this transaction. They do something for money which is not demanded by health requirements.

If people need to find out for themselves, that is their business.

I am due {perhaps} a repair.

Today we took a laptop to get a new screen and our 2005 vintage sit-on mower needs a new drive belt. It is not a good design if it needs repair after at most twenty mows. It is wearing out.

The theme of being beat-up and in need of repair is active today.

I really cannot believe what the “Statesman” in the Whitehouse is alleged to have said about finding and killing the leader of a sovereign country. This is a new low in the personal and the petty. It is hard to imagine. Things are getting very toddlers in the sand-pit like. Unfortunately, one of these is armed with vast deadly ordnance

It occurred to me that I may be being operated on just as things really kick off. I may be vulnerable and incapable when the shit hits the fan. We have a fixed price propane tariff which is looking like a good thing today. Maybe we need to order some more wood, soon.

Maybe we will have a working mower, laptop and a partially improved repaired me. I don’t think that the Whitehouse or Tel Aviv can repair their damaged relationships easily. The seed of unreliability has been sown.

It is very sad, if people are shooting those queueing for food. Barbaric, uncivilised, retrogressive. Vlad the Impaler of lore would be happy, maybe we need to bring back mass crucifixions along the Appian way.

More brutal power and cruelty seem to be on the cards. Maybe we are back to the old Bush chestnut of WMD in Iraq…

Any excuse to kill, to maim and to explode…

Death and brutal maiming by “clean” modern technology takes the humanity out of murder. It turns it into a first person shooter video game. There is no blood spatter, no acrid cordite, no sweat, no smell of putrid wounds. No entrails to trip over. The dead are put in a white sheet and buried in a mass grave by some other bugger. TV and video is not in smell-o-vision.

It is inhumane….

… and very sad.

Let’s Ask Pontius Pilate to Kill the Ayatollah…

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It seems to me that there are groundhog elements at play. The Roman Empire had an outpost in Palestine two thousand years ago. It had power over life and death. Now the Americans are powerful and have proxy forces in the region. There is pressure to destroy any nuclear capability in Persia even though the whole recent shebang has been started against international law (these days). An act of manipulation to draw the USA in.

Will Pilate {Trump} succumb to entreaty and give them the bunker busting bomb they want or will he revert to trying to solve a diplomatic crisis about Uranium enrichment which he himself precipitated? Will he give succour to Israeli paranoia, cause a regime change and unleash another wave of mass migration?

Will ISIS rise spectre like from the ashes?

What will Pilate do will he wash his hands concerning all the promises he made about stopping conflict?

Will he walk away from Ukraine?

Is he too aloof?

Who will he blame when it all goes pear shaped?

The Putative 2025 Council Meeting

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In the blue books opus the Tibetan outlines centennial council meetings, the next of which is due this year and others on the quarter century. He prophesises that by now there will be many initiates of varying degree incarnate along with a multitude of disciples. He hints that the stage of the forerunner may be drawing to a close and that the externalisation proper may commence, is commencing or may be underway. These writings are older than I, they predate the “swinging” sixties.

As is well known, no plan ever survives first contact.

In this schema the initiate Jesus was executed in Palestine two thousand years ago allegedly at the behest of the Sanhedrin and Pharisees. That carnal, violent, in meat, execution coincided with the initiate Jesus taking the fourth or renunciation initiation during which his physical plane body ceased to function and was no longer habitable. His form was rent, his causal vehicle split. According to some religious texts there were a number of proximal notable scale physical plane phenomena concurrent with these events. One could argue that the karma caused then is still in effect today and currently so. Those effects are in the news. The events in Palestine had the initiate Jesus overshadowed by the master in the office of Christ. He too was going through an initiation process. Shortly after his physical plane death, the adept Jesus took the fifth initiation and technically became the master Jesus. Simultaneous the master in the office of Christ took the sixth and seventh initiations.

We had renunciation and revelation for Jesus, decision and resurrection for the Christ. The “energies” for these events were “grounded” for the first time in a very “concentrated” manner, unleashing events for humanity. These seemingly minor insignificant events in a small two-bit country changed the face of the planet over the upcoming centuries. The sceptic may underestimate the significance of this “concentrated” esoteric occurrence.

According to the Tibetan, the council meeting will “decide” what it needs to do to best help humanity to prepare for the return of the Christ. Following the internal logic of the opus. The Christ will not be a simple third degree initiate as Jesus was upon his incarnation as a nirmāṇakāya and carpenter to be. We might say that the Christ will be a very different kettle of fish entirely.

I think it fair to say that humanity is going through a very materialistic and ungodly phase. There is division anger and blame. Currently humanity sits on its hands while brutality and death unfold. It seems that it can “justify” this to itself and still sleep at night. The propaganda against Islam is now fully embedded in the Western psyche. Who is madder a mullah or a Hasidim. Who is more retrogressive? Stuck in the past?

Humanity is very complacent and the climate change deniers have persuaded humanity that it is OK to continue to gorge to excess and ruin the “garden of Eden” into which it was born. The temptation of materialistic excess is beyond “biblical” in proportion which may elicit a planetary supra-biblical response.

It is my own view that humanity needs several wake up calls of truly epic proportions. Things need to get very much worse before people will stop pissing about with “images” on social media and actually do something less fatuous. Pontificating on soap boxes does not address planetary crisis. At the moment I see the USA as making the planetary situation worse, they no longer provide a good lead and are going down the plughole of their own selfishness and paranoia.

You can warn people about the timescale of karma, about how it ripples out from things like brutal epicentres. But in the heat of the moment and full of bile and anger they are not willing or able to listen. They believe murder and outright bullying can be justified.

It does not occur to the USA that its is behaving like a teenage bully in the hallway locker rooms of one of its “safe” high schools. It feels justified in swaggering and beating the shit out of anyone who does not kneel and kiss its arse.

Such are the days of our “enlightenment”.

In many ways the situation needs to be very dire before there is a strong enough planetary and human call, an invocation for the Christ to return. In some ways there is nothing new that needs to be done, humanity is fast heading down the shitter without any additional input. Maybe instead of externalising the hierarchy should again withdraw and wait a few more centuries until it is shit creek barbed wire canoe time….

Aux vrays difciples de Hermes – Immortalité

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There is a very real likelihood of ancient non mainstream, dare I say it, non-peer reviewed knowledge, being undervalued and forgotten. Some manuscripts have been kept. This one has a publication date of 1710 by Limojon de Saint-Didier, Alexandre-Toussaint {approximately 1630-1689}. These are {inter alia} in the internet archive and at Wellcome Collection library, there are other Alchemical texts.

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I have seen a 1699 frontispiece for this.

Peter the Philosopher was made famous by J. K. Rowling. In the Hermetic mercurial tradition, there are references on turning quicksilver into gold. Here silver {quick} is matter and gold is spirit. Transmutation of consciousness is out of gross form to achieve liberation {nirvana} and cease the endless cycle of rebirth and hence death. One never dies again; one ceases to be mortal and hence achieves im-mortality. It does not mean living in meat, incarnate, for ever and ever {or a very long time}. It means not being reborn. No more dying.

Just as in esoteric Vajrayana Buddhism there are Hermetic mandalas:

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The symbolism in sketches like this is extensive and cannot be understood entirely rationally. That approach gets nowhere other than intellectual masturbation. The thought form has to be built with care and the consequences of making it, managed in “real” meaty life. It is the battle royal of soul in matter. The Caduceus in not solely two dimensional. People imagine, incorrectly, that the stone, the rock, Pierre is a thing, a talisman, a magic artefact. They may fuck around in a chemistry lab trying to synthesise it.

One can only grasp and attain these mandalas fully when one is ready. Whoever drew this one was no novice….

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It is a shame that required orthodoxy often squanders knowledge and burns books. Socio-political position and self-advancement so often overshadows. The powerful often destroy knowledge, wisdom and science if it threatens their power base. Because knowledge is power, in a sense, those in search of mundane power seek to handicap and destroy it. Anything not catholic enough in terms of the papal edicts, whatever shape or form they may be, is ostracised and attacked.

Soon New-speak and The Ministry of Truth rule the roost and all dissidents are punished.

In the kingdom of the blind the one eyed man is king.

This pattern is a historically repeating one.

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Sometimes the esoteric can survive in the shadows. Sometimes things are lost for ever. We will never know, by definition, what is lost already.

The orthodoxy always ridicules and talks down, bad mouths, that which does not conform or obey. It has always been thus and it will probably continue to be…

Speculations on Dreaming Themes

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Over the last few days, I have become increasingly concerned for Israel. Not in the sense of the outcome of war, rather in the sense of the karma it is sowing for itself to be harvested in the decades and centuries to come. Netanyahu may want regime change in Tehran; it could happen in Tel Aviv too. The pot perennially calls the kettle black. Internal unrest is a bigger risk than any external threat.

There are a lot of loud threats and bellicose rhetoric abounds these days. Putin and Xi are probably enjoying Fox news and Herr Shouty.

The Tibetan / monastic themed dreams of early May have given way to health and history dreams. There is a recurring technology science ideas theme. For whatever reason people from my now distant London UK past keep cropping up. I don’t feel, from my perspective, any emotional detritus attached. I have no axe to grind. My working notion is that there is some weird unresolved karma there and among them. From time to time, I get “Toltec flavour” dreams which is not surprising given the effort and time I dedicated thereto. There is nothing I can or may do with the science dreams other than to note them and then park them.

The Buddhism themed dreams fading suggests that it may currently be a nonstarter, a path in the wood which peters out, a run through.  They came around Vesak and may return next year.

It seems to me entirely natural, given my health situation, that I am having health dreams. My working notion here is that my poor health is a reminder not to be so keen on reincarnating.

“Look it hurts! Don’t bother doing it again.”

What is and has been very noticeable is the relative absence of French themed dreams. We have lived here six years and aside from a few Macron dreams and a couple of a local lucid dreamer; there have been very few. The interaction here has been largely detached and non-personal. There is no “entanglement” so no need for dreams.

My horizons are dependent upon if I can get operated upon and what may or may not happen during and after. If the answer is no, then that idea can be parked, we can move on and we need to figure out how to live. At the moment it hangs. If the answer is yes then the process starts and will dominate for months.

The world can erupt and I will be here recuperating {hopefully}.

What happens with the irate and the bellicose may impact here. The fuel prices will rise. Provided it does not go global-ballistic, life here will go on.

I may have a new “lease” of life post-operation, I may not. What that might look like I have no idea.

The world “out there” seems far away. It does not seem happy. It is divided and people point stiletto fingers at each other.

“It is OK for us to bomb the fuck out of you but don’t you dare bomb us back you terrorist bastards!!”

This seems to be the current logic, the PR gist.

That is the hymn sheet for us all to sing from…

Outside it is sunny and the lotuses are starting to open in the morning sun…soon there will be a nice display. The Hirondelles must fledge soon. We can then power wash the guano under the nest…

Mawlana Jalal-al-Din Rumi – Quotes

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“As you start to walk on the way, the way appears.”

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“What you seek is seeking you.”

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“Why do you stay in prison, when the door is so wide open?”

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“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”

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“If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?”

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“Look past your thoughts, so you may drink the pure nectar of This Moment.”

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“My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that, and I intend to end up there.”

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“Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”

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“You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.”

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“I closed my mouth and spoke to you in a hundred silent ways.”

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“God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches by means of opposites so that you will have two wings to fly, not one”

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“Why struggle to open a door between us when the whole wall is an illusion?”

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“The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. Don’t go back to sleep.”

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“Somewhere beyond right and wrong, there is a garden. I will meet you there.”

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“The quieter you become, the more you are able to hear.”

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“When the light returns to its source, it takes nothing of what it has illuminated.”

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Spinning Plates and Losing Friends

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This morning, I am getting the sensation that in both Israel and the USA that the so-called leaders are so busy opening up new areas of travesty that they have too many plates in the air. They are trying too many things. They are spinning too many plates. Israel is relying on its “friendship” with the USA whose president is fickle and tantrum prone. If he does not get his way, he is not best pleased. He is a man who over promises and under delivers. He plays to camera and not wisdom. His thinking is not joined up in space and time, it is episode by episode, looking for ratings.

Many of the campaign trail boasts about his ability to solve international problems and his deal making prowess have not materialised. Both Israel and the USA by their confrontational exploits are losing friends. The USA is no longer considered a reliable ally and that will extend into the Pacific. The French must be well happy with doubts about the much heralded AUKUS pact, which is looking AWKS or awkward. Trump is the perennial deal breaker, pulling out of deals willy nilly. You cannot trust him.

If ever there was motivation to develop nuclear weapons in Iran, it has now been enhanced tenfold. The paranoid immediacy thinking of Israeli “preventative” destruction will not demotivate or deter. Abrahamic punishment thinking does not wash. The Zionists made Israel to avoid living in fear, it hasn’t worked. Fear, a sense of victimhood prevails. Being nasty does not win friends.

Everything has consequences and isolationism is rarely beneficial in the long run. I don’t think Israel is winning the popularity game in UK and Europe. Its tired propaganda is starting to creak around the edges, more than a little. Open too many fronts at peril.

I see a summer of discontent in the USA. If civil war happens the population will no longer be well vaccinated.

What happens next remains to be seen…

Maybe I will order that Geiger counter online after all…

Secondary Polycythaemia and Medical Buses

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When you wait for a bus isn’t it always the case…

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In the near future I again have a clustering of medical appointments. There are three the week after next. One of these is with an orthopaedic surgeon. Then later I get to see an anaesthetist and then the colonoscopy chimney sweep. After that it is prostate fun and games. Since it was a few years since my “chimney” was last cleaned, I anticipate a few polyps. Which will be excised and sent for biopsy.

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My Haemoglobin levels are at around 17.5 or higher.

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The blood results for HFE mutation have been sent to the GP and only they can give them to me. It is probably safe in my case to give them without narration. I won’t freak out. This is France and protocol is protocol. If negative {normal} then the consultant rheumatologist suggested JAK poly screening to explain the high haemoglobin, polycythaemia (erythrocytosis) results. If HFE mutation positive then I will be giving a pint a week of blood as haemochromatosis induction therapy. Because I have had cancer this blood will probably go down the drain, it is not good for vampires.

“Molecular genetic assays for the detection of the JAK2 V617F (c.1849G>T) and other pathogenetic mutations within JAK2 exon 12 and MPL exon 10 are part of the routine diagnostic workup for patients presenting with erythrocytosis, thrombocytosis or otherwise suspected to have a myeloproliferative neoplasm.”

The default diagnosis of secondary polycythaemia due to historical smoking, early stage hypoxia due to COPD and perhaps early adolescent altitude is the most likely. The JAK 2 screen is for some rare but serious stuff. Myeloproliferative neoplasm is not a nice phrase. It is a dot the Is and cross the Ts test. It needs a specialist prescription.

The blood results have not found a simple, normal, explanation for my osteoporosis.

The causes can be attributed to the Holy Trinty: Fat Fags and Booze. Although I am technically obese, I am also muscular, there is meat and lard. The GP may be able to shed some light on what is going on when they give me the HFE gene results. My calcium and phosphates are normal. They may suggest more tests, specifically liver, looking for fatty / alcoholic liver etc….

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I am not expecting things to be tied up or solved.

Sometimes it is just one of those things.

I guess the most important thing is that there will perhaps be clarity on the replacement hip situation. The if, where and when. Some decisions will need to me made, some preparation needed. There may be wood to chop and a gardener to secure for the time(s) when I am out of action.

Looks like a summer of fun!!!