A comedian once suggested that chaos could be putting Boris Johnson and an Aardvark whilst both on magic mushrooms into a sack. The result could be chaotic but it would be a controlled and contained chaos. If you added some crystal meth and Katie Price things could get more interesting. I give away my UK nationality from time to time at the supermarket when I cajole “Boris” the supermarket trolley to go in the direction I seek. At the moment “leadership” in the USA is chaotic and whim based. The markets are volatile and Nero might have fun watching them burn were he able to play a violin.
The thing about the internet is that it too is volatile. Things can flood like a desert wadi after a sudden rain shower. One can rocket into viral public visibility and then disappear overnight. The story about yesterday’s news being tomorrow’s wrappers for fish and chips holds truck. All it might take to be famous for a nanosecond would be for some celeb influencer to name drop. There are journos who follow what they “like” on the internet. A single like or follow could result in a chaotic uncontrollable event. Were Princess Diana to like one of my dream posts…
It is difficult if not impossible to control what happens on the internet.
The internet is a kind of alternate reality which nevertheless impinges on day to day reality.
Yesterday following a thread I searched for Quantum Venture Capital. Quantum is a groovy word. Did you know that dishwasher tablets are quantum objects?? There are some under the sink in the kitchen. I wonder what is the dishwasher tablet Hamiltonian operator?
There are lot of people using this groovy word to name their businesses.
It is like when bellends use the phrase “laser focussed” when they mean “laser collimated” or “non-divergent”. Things get appropriated.
On my desk behind me is an arXiv paper written by a VC from “Quantonation” in which he discusses funding for quantum start-ups. I am kind of resisting reading it because it pertains to an alternate reality, one where people wear suits and go to important meetings. There is a weird familiarity.
I am unlikely to be star struck were I to drift across a wormhole into that universe. Most likely I would be ignored as being non-U, not welcome at the dinner table.
It is kind of funny to watch. When I look at the “teams” presented on many Venture Capital web sites I think yuck.. Really… I do not like the look of some of them and the blurb which accompanies is non-attractive veering towards some kind of AI based same-same authorship. They look cloned. I don’t see USPs.
It does not really matter what an old git like me thinks. It is off putting. You think, maybe. You take one look and think, nah. It is not a game of soldiers which looks attractive. It is an alternate dimension.
There is always a small yet finite possibility that some chaos could manifest into our bucolic little world…
You never know what might happen, what spanners the universe may yet have in its bag for chucking…
… deep subterranean occult jealousy …— J. C. Powys
2: not easily apprehended or understood : abstruse, mysterious
… occult matters like nuclear physics, radiation effects and the designing of rockets …— Robert Bendiner
3: hidden from view : concealed
occult underground passages
4: of or relating to supernatural or supernormal powers or practices or the knowledge of them
… the occult arts—astrology, palmistry, card reading …— Amy Fine Collins
occult practices
5: not manifest or detectable by clinical methods alone
occult carcinoma
also : not present in macroscopic amounts
occult blood in a stool
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WordPress provides limited statistics on the overt readership of this blog. These suggest that readership is low. I have not gone viral. I have some readers in the USA, Hong Kong, Singapore, China and Vietnam. There are a couple of visitors from blighty.
This is the only data I have about the readership of the blog. Given all the shit you see on TV and in the movies there has to be an outside chance that others read the blog, my occult audience. This is impossible to scale. In the limit Elon the barking mad might be reading…
In the realms of movies and sci-fi something may come out of this occult audience. I could be in a bar in Casablanca and get approached. Only I don’t go to bars. I don’t see many people with homeland security earpieces at Intermarché. There is the special needs woman whose medication varies and occasionally goes in for inpatient care. There is speedy Gonzales the fastest checkout in the West and there is the tiny Breton woman with her push cart who is there every Monday morning. I am on “bonjour” terms with a number of staff either in the supermarket or outside.
Last night I had more “subjective” evidence of a London based occult readership. Why they were in my consciousness I cannot say. Perhaps I need to join the checkout girl on one of her stays. The thing about occult readership is that they cannot be taken into consideration when it comes to decision making because in reality I do not know that they are there. They are occult to me.
It is only a complete idiot who makes any decisions based on anything occult…
Last night I was having a little trouble drifting off to sleep and it occurred to me that I do not know how mobile ‘phones work….
The first thing that came mind was that they must have analogue to digital converters (ADC). These must change voice into digital and digital into sound. Then I wondered if the carrier frequency of the ‘phone signal is amplitude or frequency modulated. Which means that there must be demodulators.
The precision or resolution in terms of bit per volt need not be overly high for sound given that the loudspeakers or headphones are not audiophile quality. High resolution at 32 or 64 bit would make for big files and large data.
But the business IS data. People want to flog you ever more data so whilst there is a speed – dollar trade off, they must be pushing towards more data throughput – more dollars.
The big bucks are in images and video which need giga-dollars to send and vast increases in the global carbon budget to store.
Who needs more selfies, vacuous influencer posts and cat videos?
The purveyors of data…you can find one on each street corner {man}.
I learned today that some ‘phones have microphones to sample background noise for noise cancelling…
If it is possible to receive a mobile phone call or SMS message it must be possible to intercept it. There is no copper or fibre optic. The message floats freely. It must be possible to clone a ‘phone. Two ‘phones receiving the same signal do not weaken it. How can you detect an intercept. You probably can’t from the intercept alone; subsequent actions might give a hint…
So how does a ‘phone uniquely identify itself as the recipient of a message / call? Has it a unique identity? In principle yes, but these must also not be clone proof…If you can set up digital identity on one ‘phone its should be possible to copy it.
When a call comes does it open a gate which allows the ‘phone company to allow the message to flow? There must be some “switch” flicked.
“Hey, I am ready for your call..”
People talk of end to end encryption? How does that work? Is there a sender’s key and a receiver’s key. How easily copied are these keys?
Which caused the ancillary question how does this encryption work?
I suspect that calls and data fly around willy nilly without people worrying about intercepts.
As an aside we have recently watched a number of “spy” dramas in which people are using their mobile ‘phones to chat, text and take pictures of evidence. It seems markedly non clandestine to me. Is this real life or transference of ‘phone junkie thinking into drama? Surely you would not take a traceable device into a sneaky meeting with your favourite mole on a Berlin bridge?
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“Quantum communication has seen some big announcements in 2024, with smartphone markets and data centers turning to the technology for secure and robust data security that can be trusted. IDTechEx’s report, “Quantum Communication Market 2024-2034: Technology, Trends, Players, Forecasts”, details the many national and international benefits and uses for quantum communication alongside some of the main challenges of implementation.
Safer smartphone security
Smartphones today contain an abundance of personal data, including passwords to banking and email accounts and online purchase histories. 2024 saw the announcement of the Galaxy Quantum 5, with Samsung literally alluding to the smartphone’s quantum capabilities with its name. The smallest quantum random number generator available has been installed within the device to provide users with the highest levels of authentication and encryption, ensuring that communications and authentication features are safe and can be trusted. As smartphones today are relied upon as small computers that can access and store any information, quantum technology will enable them to do their job reliably and securely.
It kind of suggests that ownership of the quantum key is the route to secure call and answer communication. The pitfall of any QKD has to be trust. If you do not trust the locksmith… who assures you that the key is unique – you are buggered. That is unless you yourself supply the key. {possible idea here?}
One could imagine a quantum spam blocker…
Basically the best assurance against being spied upon is introversion. If you don’t say anything it can’t be heard.
Maybe I need to get a “Mobile ‘Phone Communications for Dummies” book…
Clearly I don’t know how the devil spawned devices work…
I have been peripherally linked to two major scandals in modern science “Cold Fusion” and “Room Temperature Superconductivity”. A man for whom I was a post doc was linked to Martin Fleischmann who was his supervisor. I had a few conversations with an ex-student about the more recent room temperature superconductivity controversy. It was mooted that I might join the start-up.
If you are an accepted “bishop” like Fleischmann it is easier to survive than if you are a mere curate like Ranga Dias.
“Science” tends to permanently excommunicate those found guilty of breaking the “rules”. It can have harsher penalties than for a priest sodomizing choir boys. If you do not toe the line you are perhaps contumacious. If there in not enough cap doffing…
The pressure to publish and get good publication metric data is immense, perhaps stupidly so. I have yet to hear of criminal prosecutions for falsifying data. Though it is clearly criminally fraudulent to obtain research funding based on lies and “making shit up”. The temptation is there. Grant income bestows kudos and ensures “tenure”, if such a thing still exists. People find it hard not to blag and hype.
Today I have had a look on the internet for Ranga Dias. Since he left University of Rochester he has disappeared into the aether. There is a great deal of “pile on” for him and there is even glee-full hand rubbing at his fate. I do wonder if the pile on would have been less if he was a white establishment figure.
I suspect he may struggle to get high status employment in the West ever again.
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All “religions”, “parties” and “cults” have a form of shunning and excommunication whether that excommunication be occult or otherwise…
You don’t have to wear weird or groovy clothes.
Group mind uses excommunication to punish errancy and divergence…it demands compliance.
When we attempt to communicate the message we actually send may be much different from what we think we meant. How people receive and perceive what we say may differ markedly.
There is a tendency to try to force others to comply with our view of the world. If they do not we can ostracise them, shame them and “punish” them for not behaving as we think they ought to. Excommunication and shunning are methods employed. There can be a perception that the shunned person wishes back into the fold and will do anything to make amends. This can be a miscalculation.
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Once we have shunned someone it can be impossible to re-build a relationship. A bridge burned is not easily reconstructed. The punished may no longer want anything to do with the emotive “punishers”.
We might imagine a temporary message when it is perceived as permanent. If you put someone on the naughty step they may be very happy to be out of the maelstrom where they can meditate and gain perspective.
They can boogie in peace.
It can be difficult to understand that if you bomb someone they are very unlikely to be bosom buddies again in the near future.
Ill will has long longevity, good will can evaporate in a flash and is very difficult to rebuild.
We may not think about what messages we are actually sending especially when we are in the heat of the moment or ranting and raving. We can deliver and receive entirely the wrong message…
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“The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place.”
Doing a brief search on this today I came upon the notion for reverse impostor syndrome. Which does not seem to be greatly overestimating your abilities and bullshitting rather it is having a realistic high assessment which is not yet matched by the perceptions of others. There is bias against the lack of overt pushy presentation and showing off. The book must be shiny and well branded. The highly strategic global vision introvert may not be so highly rated as the “gobshite” blagger snake oil salesman. There is apparently an issue in VC circles where surface performance is funded more readily than in depth potential. It is not the best investment on occasion. Founders can have reverse impostor syndrome; they know their ideas are good but everybody else has yet to catch up.
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Imposter syndrome is other people thinking you’re good, but you still don’t believe it for yourself on the inside.
Reverse imposter syndrome is knowing you are good, but others don’t believe it (as much as you know it tobe true).
Wes Kao
VC-backed founder turned coach. Writing for 80,000+ operators on executive communication and influence at {newsletter.weskao.com}
It raises a philosophical idea.
If you think you know what you are talking about and this has significance are you on an attention seeking ego trip or is your assessment simply premature?
If the world at large is not interested or does not notice, who is mistaken them or you?
Who is kidding who?
If you don’t appreciate someone who know things well because they differ with your own views, exactly who is on an ego trip?
Can people use telekinesis to stop the penny from dropping, if so, for how long?
It is very easy when one is on an ego trip to point the finger at someone else and assert that it is they in fact who are on an ego trip…
Who defines, who is the expert, on what is and what is not an ego trip?
When a door closes for me I am rarely upset. It just means that one out of many trajectories is no longer possible. I have over the last few months had various suggestions suggested to me in dreams. Things like dreaming courses, a Tibetan vibe, stuff to do with quantum and venture capital, a bit of old school alchemy and the odd hint of Toltec. There is no obvious way forward in any of these for me so I have concluded fairly strongly that these avenues are no-go, dead-ends. There is no point in trying to push on a closed door. Dreaming can hint at possibilities in the web of life, there is a big gap between a vague dreamy possibility and a viable probability.
I have a working hypothesis that the level of interest in what I may know is very low and that only a very few people have any. This does not come as a big surprise to me.
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So we have been kicking around a “what to do next”. The basic starting point is that we need to move to a house / apartment which is smaller with less maintenance and lower heating costs, coupled to a garden significantly smaller than 2 acres. We want some outside space.
The biggest fly in the appointment is the financial uncertainty caused by Benjamin Nosferatu et al. bombing the fuck out of other countries. It may have a negative impact on our ability to sell this house.
Where have we gotten to?
It seems that rental accommodation around here and in South or West Wales is scarce. If you are prepared to live in isolated rural Carmarthenshire or Pembrokeshire you can get good value for money. The poor transport lowers the asking price. There is a trade-off.
We could just about afford to buy something near Carmarthen or Haverfordwest. Carmarthen has a Caffè Nero.
We have looked at Strasbourg, Besançon and Grenoble. Not sure we could handle a big metropolis. Grenoble should be fairly multi-cultural like Strasbourg. They are a bit pricey. Mountains might be nice as would a UNESCO downtown.
The theme of a different living experience remains to the fore. A town centre flat, a town house or even a houseboat would be new to us both.
We are still going with the idea of a shortish journey time to a decent sized hospital, say around 45 minutes by road.
We could go and speak with estate agents and Notaires. I have no idea if we could easily sell this house nor for how much. That would scale the size of what is possible.
It is looking like sell and rent before buy. The rental could be France or UK. It rains too much in Ireland.
We do not have to move. We could afford another year here.
There is a problem that when I say to people that I do not negotiate they think that this is a negotiation strategy. It is hard to forewarn people in a way which they understand and take on board.
« Je n’ai aucun besoin de discuter (vers la fin du monde). »
Seems unbelievable to many.
We have a very open geographical search area. There is a problem with non-attachment and that is lack of fixation or ambition. When one does not covet how does one decide?
In the past the universe has helped us out with decisions. Often at the last moment. Whilst we can note this observable trend it would be unwise to rely on it.
If we chose the UK I could probably guarantee some “A” level science tutoring January to June each year. This means we could pay a little more for a UK house than a French one.
At the moment we are embedded in the French system, which makes everything straightforward. Like many things here, it is difficult to get started, but once up and running it goes along just fine. Effort at the beginning pays off. France has both momentum and inertia, which makes sense. Get it started and then it is difficult to stop. France is very rhythmic in the way the year pans out.
The “what to do” question seems to be pointing at more of the same, scaled down. I have been playing with my chain saw today, strimmer frenzy tomorrow.
It will be nice to have a new location to explore and scout when we move.
There are some properties for sale in Barnard Castle…
It is all a bit open, we shall see what the dreaming suggests and act thereupon.
“What is different about Iran? It is the only state that has legalised the sale of kidneys.”
Since the bombardment of Iran by Israel and the USA has begun it seems likely that the international trade in spare part human kidneys will be impacted. In a supply and demand world removal of a major supplier is likely to have knock on impacts on the global price of a transplant kidney.
When the first bombs started falling I doubt they considered the impact on the price of an accelerated bespoke kidney transplant for the discerning and well-heeled consumer. There will be an embargo on Iran sponsored kidney transplants for the short term. Air space will be closed. Given large scale destruction by ordnance the kidney transplant industry may be set back many years.
“We do not want Iran to have a kidney transplant industry..” said an Israeli with knowledge of the matter and on strict grounds of anonymity.
This means that I might be able to get more for one of my kidneys…
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Kidney International Volume 69, Issue 6 , p960-962 March 02, 2006
Continuous growth of the end stage renal disease population treated by dialysis, outpaces deceased donor kidneys available, lengthens the waiting time for a deceased donor transplant. As estimated by the United States Department of Health & Human Services: ‘17 people die each day waiting for transplants that can’t take place because of the shortage of donated organs.’ Strategies to expand the donor pool – public relations campaigns and Drivers’ license designation – have been mainly unsuccessful. Although illegal in most nations, and viewed as unethical by professional medical organizations, the voluntary sale of purchased donor kidneys now accounts for thousands of black market transplants. The case for legalizing kidney purchase hinges on the key premise that individuals are entitled to control of their body parts even to the point of inducing risk of life. One approach to expanding the pool of kidney donors is to legalize payment of a fair market price of about $40 000 to donors. Establishing a federal agency to manage marketing and purchase of donor kidneys in collaboration with the United Network for Organ Sharing might be financially self-sustaining as reduction in costs of dialysis balances the expense of payment to donors.
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Should we sell our kidneys? The Guardian
Right now, about 7,000 people are awaiting a kidney transplant in the UK. According to NHS figures, in 2024/25 only 3,302 adult kidney transplants were performed. The charity Kidney Research UK states that “just 32% of patients receive a transplant within a year of joining the waiting list and six people die every week while waiting.”
People who experience kidney failure need either lifelong dialysis or a transplant to survive. Yet even for those lucky enough to get a transplant, that is by no means the end of the story. Kidneys from deceased donors last an average of 10 to 15 years, those from a living person 20 to 25. If (or rather, when) a transplant fails, the affected patient once again needs dialysis or a donated organ.
The UK is not unusual in having far more people who need kidneys than there are kidneys available. Every country in the world has this problem. With one exception: Iran.
What is different about Iran? It is the only state that has legalised the sale of kidneys. This began in 1988, and means the country has no waiting lists. You can expect to pay about $5,000 for a new kidney, subject to a price cap adjusted for inflation and enforced by the government. (By contrast, a kidney bought on the black market elsewhere can cost up to $120,000.) The proceeds go to the donor, who can be a friend or family relative, or just somebody who needs the money and happens to be a biological match. Indeed, in Iran most people who donate kidneys have no direct relation to the person receiving the organ. They are just doing it for the cash.
Two high-profile stories in US newspapers this year have prompted the media to ask whether the illegal sale of human organs in the US is more common than previously thought. In the first case, a New York City resident was arrested for trying to orchestrate the sale of a human kidney to an undercover FBI agent for US$160,000. The second story was of an Israeli man who flew to New York to donate his kidney in exchange for $20,000. These stories underscore the desperation of patients in need of a donor organ and the need to reduce the number of patients on transplant waiting lists. The methods to achieve this goal are severalfold and include increasing the number of live kidney donors, increasing deceased donation, and preventing the development of renal failure in the first instance.
Each day in the US, 17 people die waiting for a transplant. Although in the majority of countries, the selling of an organ is illegal, according to the WHO, 5–10% of all transplanted kidneys are purchased. The shortage of transplantable organs undoubtedly fuels the demand for illegally sourced organs. Critics of legislation in the US and most other countries argue that the legalization of kidney sales could increase donation and survival rates for patients on waiting lists. Several models of such regulation have been proposed—typically they involve the payment of a fixed sum to the donor, long-term follow-up and life insurance benefits. However, although a regulated system of organ sales could, in theory, enable follow-up and provision of adequate health care for kidney donors, this notion is at odds with the social and medical capabilities of many developing countries.
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Black Market Kidneys, $160,000 a Pop
By Edecio Martinez CBS News
July 27, 2009 / 8:15 AM EDT / CBS News
NEWARK, New Jersey (AP)
Levy Izhak Rosenbaum of Brooklyn called himself a “matchmaker,” but his business wasn’t romance.
Instead, authorities say, he brokered the sale of black-market kidneys, buying organs from vulnerable people from Israel for $10,000 and selling them to desperate patients in the United States for as much as $160,000.
The alleged decade-long scheme, exposed last week by an FBI sting, rocked the nation’s transplant industry. If true, it would be the first documented case of organ trafficking in the U.S., transplant experts said Friday.
“There’s certainly cross-national activity, but it hasn’t touched the United States or we haven’t known about it until now,” said University of Pennsylvania medical ethicist Arthur Caplan, who is co-directing a U.N. task force on international organ trafficking.
Rosenbaum was arrested Thursday, 10 days after meeting in his basement with a government informant and an FBI agent posing as the informant’s secretary. The agent claimed to be searching for a kidney for a sick uncle on dialysis who was on a transplant list at a Philadelphia hospital.
“I am what you call a matchmaker,” Rosenbaum said in a secretly recorded conversation. “I bring a guy what I believe, he’s suitable for your uncle.” Asked how many organs he had brokered, he said: “Quite a lot,” the most recent two weeks earlier.
As part of the scheme, the organ donors were brought from Israel to this country, where they underwent surgery to remove the kidneys, authorities said. Prosecutors did not identify which hospitals in the U.S. received the donors and their kidneys.
“The allegations about an organ trafficking ring in the United States are appalling,” said John Davis, CEO of the National Kidney Foundation.
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Australian transplant waiting list contributes to human organ black market, committee says
By political reporter Stephanie Dalzell
Mon 3 Dec 2018 ABC News
The criminal masterminds behind the illegal trade of human body parts raked in $2.3 billion around the globe last year.
About 12,000 organs were sold on the black market, and while the majority of those exchanges involved kidneys, 654 hearts and 2,615 livers were sold for up to $394,000 each.
That illegal trade will continue to grow if the Australian Government does not do more to deter human organ trafficking, according to a unanimous report handed down by a parliamentary committee.
About 1,400 Australians are currently waiting for an organ transplant, while a further 11,000 are on kidney dialysis, and the committee found if the government failed to address the gap between the number of people requiring organ transplants and the limited supply of freely donated organs, the black market would keep flourishing.
Commercial organ market
Organ
Global illicit transplants(per annum)
Price range(AUD)
Kidney
7,995
$68,000 – $163,000
Liver
2,615
$134,000 – $197,000
Heart
654
$176,000 – $394,000
Lung
469
$203,000 – $394,000
Pancreas
233
$149,000 – $190,000
The chairman of the Human Rights Sub-Committee of the Joint Standing Committee on Foreign Affairs, Defence and Trade, Liberal MP Kevin Andrews, told Parliament the average waiting time for a kidney in Australia was three years.
“Desperate people often facing certain death without a transplant may travel far from their own countries to places such as Egypt, the Philippines or Pakistan, paying tens of thousands of dollars or more, for an organ transplant, where the donor is most likely in dire financial straits, possibly exploited, and unable to give free and informed consent to donation,” Mr Andrews said.
Cutting down demand
The committee’s report recommended the Australian Government pursue a range of measures to strengthen its involvement in international efforts to combat human organ trafficking, collect data on Australians involved in illegal organ trafficking overseas and also tighten criminal laws around organ harvesting.
It also concluded the Government should seek to improve organ-donation rates through ongoing funding of programs, education awareness campaigns, and the investigation of other international programs — such as opt-out organ donation.
Mr Andrews said the committee heard from many people who argued protections against the practice needed to be strengthened.
“Their evidence was consistent, organ trafficking is a violation of the rights and dignity of people and Australia must do more to stop people in our community traveling overseas to support it,”
I have not worn a suit in a long time, maybe more than a decade. I have one but it no longer fits. I am near 100 kg now. I do not have a suit jacket nor any proper trousers other than track suit bottoms and army surplus fatigues. There is one pair of heavy duty cargo pants. I have only one pair of shoes, trainers, which I wear, several pairs of crocs and heavy duty steel toe-capped work boots. I have not worn black leather shoes in a very long time
Probably the smartest outfit I could put together would be my urban greyscale combats, a collarless granddad shirt and a leather jacket. Not perhaps the most genteel gear for a 61 year old. I am prone to days without shaving. I do have a pair of Ray Bans.
I would look out of place in any quasi posh environment. I could not pay the entrance fee to any conference and travel is prohibitively expensive. It takes a long while to get anywhere from Brittany as direct flights are scarce. It is an hour and half drive to the border with Normandy. There is a TGV to Paris.
I do not move in any social or professional circles whatsoever. I could not dress appropriately for anything remotely formal or posh.
So although my dreams point at highfalutin situations I would look out of place…I may even be refused entry.
Once when I had a Swiss Army penknife confiscated on a flight from Zurich to Palermo I had changed on board into a vest, combats and Converse All Stars because of the anticipated heat. I had to pick my penknife up from the Italian police at the airport. They were very sceptical until I showed them my invitation as Dr Taylor to speak at a conference in Erice. They then gave me back my knife which had a corkscrew on for opening wine.
People do judge a book by the cover…and here in France my accent is often noted too.
I would be more readily accepted in a rough café / pub / dive than a Michelin star restaurant…
We are a long way from any of my prior London incarnations.
If people ask me where I am from the answer based on time spent is Brixton…
A bit of a South London geezer…
Reality can differ from idealised views about how things might be…
I have just gotten the sit-on mower going. It is two decades old and very cranky after its lay off over winter. She has new spark plugs and a fresh fuel filter. I have manged to cut one of the four lawns. This was near impossible prior to my hip replacement. There is a bit of left hip pain but first guess is that I can save on paying someone to cut the lawn for me for the next few months. This saves around £150 every two to three weeks in spring and this is slightly more than half of our weekly shopping bill. It is a significant amount for us. I got the fuel filter down at the farm supply shop where the woman on the till recognises me from our discussions about hunting and killing moles. My tally is in excess of two dozen moles now!!
So there you go…
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Self-perception is often related to what one does. For the next six months I will be doing a lot of “estate management”. I may do a bit of DIY but to the world at large I will be simply another retiree musing at how poorly he fits with the modern world where people get intravenous / umbilical data at gigabits/s.
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I am retired and aging. I think I am going a bit mutton. So I might need to get my ears tested.
My working hypothesis is that my residual fate is very limited and that to the world in general I don’t really have much relevance.
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The basic ides is that we downsize and maybe move to a new unspecified area where there is new scenery to explore.
Despite all this from time to time I get dreams on lofty subjects with associated big cheeses in. What goes on in those dreams has little relevance to my day to day. The likelihood of anything real and measurable manifesting is very low. So I am just some kind of dreamer who just happens to have an alternate nocturnal dream-world. There has not been anything much in the dreams which is actionable.
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The world at large need not be bothered all that much about what happens here on the compound.
I have no idea how others might see me but were I to approach, for example, a serious Venture Capitalist there is a huge and massive credibility gap.
I am more pikey than entrepreneur.
A bumpkin dreaming of quantum modalities, although perhaps unusual, is not something one should or could take seriously.
I find it extremely difficult to imagine myself in the kind of circles where I might mingle…
Dreamyoga 