blame – Dreamyoga

I have met a number of people who think they know more about dreaming than me.

A number of people seem to believe that I can benefit from education by them. I am in severe need of their knowledge / wisdom and they feel sufficiently generous to learn me.

Many people are convinced that they know best and are always right. They can be adamant.

It is not unusual for people to gob off on subjects about which they know little. There are a lot of “instant experts” out there.

As a rule people will only do what seems to be convenient to them. It is very unusual for anyone to put themselves out.

People believe that high-kudos institutional affiliation is a marker of depth and extent of knowledge. Who you know can be more important than what you know.

People believe that “they” are the arbiters of truth. Peer pressure and acceptance is very important to them. Belonging to the herd, tribe, shoal, cult, party, institution or society is seen as vital. One must belong to some grouping or other. “We” know better than “they”. God is benevolent to only “us”. We are special.

People are terrified of missing out and being socially ostracised.

People are very fickle.

People put things off and practise escapism / avoidance until such time as they learn the meaning of complacency via hindsight and retrospect.

People are very self-centred; they only do what suits them and advances their imagined interests. Genuine selfless compassion centred altruism is rare, altruism for public relations show is common.

Those in power by association or by position will always seek to conserve that power at whatever cost and for as long as is possible. Even when it is foolish so to do.

Letting go is not something which people do easily. The clenched fist clinging on is much more common than the freely open palm of offering.

People worry and stress much more than is warranted. This is because they are obsessed with the socio-political pecking order which them deem reality. They are masochist and insist on suffering lifetime after lifetime.

People imagine that they are hard done by and say stupid things like “it is not fair that Jack got cancer..” They are unwilling to take responsibility for the karmic effects in their lives and play an endless blame game…

In the west people like to complain and moan and find fault and whinge and blame and play stupid dramas and seek revenge and throw sand at each other in the sand pit and then sulk to mummy, a lot. This is not in proportion to the relative ease of their life circumstances. There is an ungrateful sense of entitlement which pervades.

In general it is always someone else’s fault. Quite often I am to blame for all of their woes.

It is all my fault after all…

Here is last night’s dream and my subsequent initial response to it. It was from before 3 AM.

The dream starts with me outside a car rental forecourt in southern England. Terry appears there on the opposite side of the road. He is, as he was wont, emanating aggression and anger in my direction. He saw me as the one he had to destroy. He is mouthing a foul invective about me and at me. He trying to catch the ears of anyone who will listen, any passersby. He is trying to talk me down and big himself up, as he did in real life. He imagines that he was responsible for the inventions and even claims this. He is full of anger, resentment and is not having a pleasant time of it. He is experiencing and emanating a dark cloying malevolence.

I cross the road and stand very calmy in front of him an arm’s length away. He continues to emit vitriolic anger, hard-done by vibes, fear and clinging anger. They wash over me and he is disconcerted that I remain unaffected.

In the dream I know that I am witnessing an aspect of the evil which was in him. I know that this is a part of his death dance. The restless and unsatisfied, the angry and the bilious as he is slowly taken out of life kicking, sulking and most of all blaming, blaming, blaming. He blames me, others and the entire world because things did not go entirely how he wanted according to his whim. His death is very uncomfortable. As he passes out from this world, I see an evil entity leave and reluctantly let go of the dying form. It is a shimmer of dark malevolent tendrils, evil, now looking for a host.

I see next a young man of in-between “gender” in a hotel room. He has blonde hair and an androgenous look. He is psychiatrically unwell and contemplating suicide. I see the tendrils enter the man and he briefly wakes up coughing and spluttering as the entity tries to enter. I assist him in waking and forbidding the entity. The man is writhing around in struggle with difficulty gasping breath. I command him to wake up which he does and immediately reaches over to turn on the hotel room lights. He is dripping in sweat and very disoriented.

I awake and note that I too am disoriented.

I instinctively start Guru Rinpoche and Vajrapāṇi tantric practice for protection. I chant silently and invoke and create a full-blown Vajrapāṇi visualisation of considerable size which has persisted in consciousness afterwards and is still resident as I type. I make other tantric adjustments before falling off to sleep.

Maybe it is time for me to fully verbalize events from back then.

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Terry – Evil Entity – Vajrapāṇi Dream – 25-08-2025