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Who in Their Right Mind?

March 29, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

Overnight I had a dream with multiple Japanese themes which prompted me to look at my passport to look again at the chronology of my visits to Japan. I had underestimated just how many times I had in fact visited. It is eight times!!

This time of year in 1995 I was in Japan. I took photos of people with Sakurai in the park when they asked me, a gaijin, so to do.

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It is no wonder that I felt Narita as much like home as Lusaka, Kenneth Kaunda International Airport.

I have been toying with this theme of “who in their right mind?” for quite a while.

In 1995 I flew to Japan to exhibit a prototype reflectance anisotropy spectrometer at a Japanese Physics Society meeting at Tohoku University. It was my first time with an interpreter. Because the prototype was rough and ready I attracted quite an audience of bored physics types. The idea was that this was an in situ metrology tool for atmospheric pressure semiconductor growth.

Who in their right mind would fly to the other side of the world to exhibit an instrument on a wing and a prayer?

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Japan Visits

26-03-1995  to 02-04-1995

11-03-1997 to 16-03-1997

24-03-1997 to 28-03-1997

22-07-1997 to 25-07-1997

04-11-1998 to 13-11-1998

05-12-2000 to 09-12-2000

22-05-2001 to 26-05-2001

23-07-2001 to 27-07-2001

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Later that year I became very ill having a mental breakdown. All my research grant applications were being knocked back. I think this was done at EPSRC grant committee by an Oxford big cheese prof with whom I had a number of run ins. I later got to review his grant applications in which were ideas very similar to the ones I had previously put forward. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and given initially Prozac and then MAOIs and the tricyclic Doxepin. Normally MAOIs were reserved for inpatient care because of the dietary requirements. Because I was vegan the psychiatrist took a risk that I would stick to diet. I had strong suicidal ideation to the point of detailed suicide planning.

To this day I cannot remember anything from 1996.

In March 1997 I went to Japan twice to visit Advantest in Sendai and Tokyo Electron Ltd.. The idea was to see if we could fit the Spectrometer to iii-v growth rigs in Sendai and a provisional view of plasma etch rig of Silicon Oxide at TEL.

Who in their right mind who do this?

I was very heavily medicated…

In 1997 I developed a working spectrometer complete with software control with Thomas Swann a semiconductor growth tool manufacturer. I wrote the manual. This was installed in Sendai at Advantest. I got no academic credit or financial gain from this. It did not help my career.

In late 1997 we went to Tokyo Electron in Yamanashi prefecture whilst I was still on the MAOIs and we pitched and gained £270,000 {cash} research contract to look at these oxide on Silicon wafers and build a machine. This was installed and tested in 1998.

Who in their right mind would try to take back up electronic circuit boards through airport security at Heathrow?

Who would try to source local power Field Effect Transistors in Japanese to retro fit when the ones we supplied blew?

By 1998 I was off the medication.

We got a £1,600,000 grant which had an EUV component and built an EUV prototype source in the basement of Chemistry at Imperial.

The department refused to put me forward for promotion…I was not recommended.

I prepared and we pitched a business plan for a laser start-up in 2000 a part of this was an EUV source.  This was the “sexy” upside to the pitch. The one that got the investors willing to take a punt.

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In 2000 I went to Semicon East as a newly funded founder and young academic. I approached the booths of Nikon and  Canon about EUV. I secured initial meetings with the Nikon EUV team and ongoing contacts with the Canon team. I made initial overtures to Gigaphoton who were potential competitors. We had contacted and were in contact with ASML. The Nikon guys and I had tea in the foyer of my Tokyo hotel.

Who in their right mind would try to do that from a standpoint of zero?

Either I had balls or I was a complete nut job. It is a long way to travel for potentially fuck all.

Later we went back with the newly appointed CEO. We met in 2001 Nikon, Canon and Gigaphoton. Unfortunately for a highly technical sale the CEO was a technical liability, a complete nightmare. Bullshit does not work when photon numbers and specifications are the deal clincher. I found  out that he had been swinging the lead and had been lying about how welcome he was in Japan. It is difficult to correct a CEO without completely discrediting. The guy from Canon later empathised with me over a cigarette outside. He understood the awkward position.

The weird thing is not once did anyone question my sanity…

I made a number of decisions including “giving my shares back” and resigning from a “tenured” academic position at a top university.

Who in their right mind would do such a thing?

Nobody questioned if I was bat shit crazy or of sound mind…nobody…

Which is a bit odd given that I had a history of mental illness…

I have a working idea that the illness was in part triggered by delayed post-traumatic stress disorder PTSD because of the crocodile and hippo incident in the Kafue river. I have a history of self-medication and reckless behaviour.

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One might call an entrepreneurial ideation reckless..

Who in their right mind would try to get £5,000,000 start-up funds?

Who in their right mind would fund someone to that tune?

Is there a thin line?

Where is the crossover point?

Novichok – Exile and Cairo – Dream Follow Up

March 28, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

I was a bit surprised to have both Navalny and Cairo crop up in the same dream this morning. I may need to take more care with door handles in case there is some Novichok agent thereupon.

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That I should dream of Navalny, who was a problem for the Putin regime and had an external and internal exile, is perhaps symbolic. I live in a self-imposed exile of sorts. Though we were driven here by the endless never-ending ceaseless inane bollocks of Brexit drivel on the UK TV. It got so damn divisive and yawn-some. We moved here quickly so that our chance to live here was not scuppered by the exit crazed. I see myself as European.

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The appearance of Cairo in a dream has had me checking real estate prices there. Property in Egypt has gotten a lot more expensive.  I went to Sharm El-Sheik in 2003 for a dive holiday and had a deeply mystical experience on top of Sinai the night before and dawn of my birthday. The dreams suggest the last time I was there, in Egypt, in a previous life was contemporary with Imhotep!!

The Sinai experience opened a door inside me.

The dream has re-opened the Africa question for me. I lived in Zambia aged 9 -13. I visited Cape Town, Stellenbosch and Augrabies. I went to Mombasa and the Masai Mara where a local soon to be head man invited me to stay in his compound. I often stopped at Nairobi airport on the way to school in the UK. I remember the old men Spider and Tembo who let me sit with them in our garden while they advised the younger men seeking their counsel.

I am not sure if I am done with “Africa” yet. It has a strong pull…

It has added a new ingredient back into the mix…

Hmnn…

I may indeed be more welcome in Africa than Europe…

From Pikeys to Patents

March 26, 2026March 26, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

In the Summer of 1982 when I was 17 years old I had a summer job working at Britannia Refined Metals for Ron who ran a part the lead reclamation effort. There was a pile, a large stack, of used car, milk float and motorcycle batteries which we would chop open with a four and a half pound axe. We would discard the casings and put the acid soaked lead into a skip. We were paid per tonne of lead we produced cash in hand. Two skips full a day was the norm. It was not unusual to take home £200 per week for five mornings of gruelling labour at low pH and with significant lead dust. I still have a sulphuric acid burn scar on my left elbow. From time to time we would be rested because our blood lead levels got too high. We wore some protective clothing and a face visor.

My father was superintendent for the secondary lead smelter. Our lead fed the smelter. On site there was also a high volume silver refinery. When my dad worked there Ron was not allowed to take his lorries off site. I was employed as a kind of “sweetener” for my dad. But I pulled my weight and me and friend easily kept pace with the others. The battery stack was first port of call for those just out of prison and in need of cash. No referees needed. The crew were motley and mostly hard men. I was innocent but a physically fit rugby player and martial artist. The operation was quasi-legit. But Ron was also a bit of a crim. A few years down the line he and his “accountant” were stopped at the airport on the run with £50,000 cash each in their bags. Ron had “masterminded” a silver heist after my dad left the company. It was partly an inside job.

Ron was perhaps a thieving “pikey” as per “Peaky Blinders” which we watched last night. I had earned my spurs and I was down with them.

One of the battery stack crew had a cobra tattoo on his penis which he was prone to show off. They were hard violent men and I was offered. “If you ever need someone done over or kneecapped we will do it for a few hundred quid!” I used to bang into one of the gang on the council estate near home regularly. That was until he was sent down again. I could at a push re-create a persona which would enable me to fit in the pubs they frequented. I can do geezer again.

I started my chemistry degree in Autumn 1982 at UCL I was barely 18.

In around 2000 I had a working EUV protype and I briefly got to meet Dr Jos Benschop now Executive Vice President Technology of ASML Netherlands BV. For a while I even had his business card. I saw him recently on YouTube in an ASML video about their $300 million EUV lithography tool. It was weird. I recognised him instantly. Jos is probably the most globally significant person I have ever met.

I wrote a couple of patent application for EUV light sources. I did for a while keep track of the hundreds of ASML EUV patents.

I went from pikeys to patents…

Following this morning’s dream I can conclude with some confidence that my dreams and dreaming are unique. There will be nobody else in the world who has dreams like mine and with such a varied scope.

I said to the wife, “I would really like to see some psychology or psychiatry professional provide an explanation for my dreaming. I doubt they could find a satisfactory one…How could they make it internally consistent?”

As it stands I am just a weird anomaly in terms of the world at large…

Again the notion of patents has cropped up and only a few hours after watching “Peaky Blinders”.

From pikeys to patents in under eight hours…

Residual Fate and Self-perception

March 18, 2026March 18, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

I have just gotten the sit-on mower going. It is two decades old and very cranky after its lay off over winter. She has new spark plugs and a fresh fuel filter. I have manged to cut one of the four lawns. This was near impossible prior to my hip replacement. There is a bit of left hip pain but first guess is that I can save on paying someone to cut the lawn for me for the next few months. This saves around £150 every two to three weeks in spring and this is slightly more than half of our weekly shopping bill. It is a significant amount for us. I got the fuel filter down at the farm supply shop where the woman on the till recognises me from our discussions about hunting and killing moles. My tally is in excess of two dozen moles now!!

So there you go…

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Self-perception is often related to what one does. For the next six months I will be doing a lot of “estate management”. I may do a bit of DIY but to the world at large I will be simply another retiree musing at how poorly he fits with the modern world where people get intravenous / umbilical data at gigabits/s.

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I am retired and aging. I think I am going a bit mutton. So I might need to get my ears tested.

My working hypothesis is that my residual fate is very limited and that to the world in general I don’t really have much relevance.

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The basic ides is that we downsize and maybe move to a new unspecified area where there is new scenery to explore.

Despite all this from time to time I get dreams on lofty subjects with associated big cheeses in. What goes on in those dreams has little relevance to my day to day. The likelihood of anything real and measurable manifesting is very low. So I am just some kind of dreamer who just happens to have an alternate nocturnal dream-world. There has not been anything much in the dreams which is actionable.

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The world at large need not be bothered all that much about what happens here on the compound.

I have no idea how others might see me but were I to approach, for example, a serious Venture Capitalist there is a huge and massive credibility gap.

I am more pikey than entrepreneur.

A bumpkin dreaming of quantum modalities, although perhaps unusual, is not something one should or could take seriously.

I find it extremely difficult to imagine myself in the kind of circles where I might mingle…

It is just another world…

The German Vibe – Dream Follow Up

March 16, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

At the moment we have been watching a few German language series on Netflix including “Kleo” and “Unfamiliar”. With the aid of English subtitles I am passively revisiting the German language space.

In 2107 I made a company called eigenoptics. I even had a provisional logo:

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Back then I made contact with various European and British photonics clusters. The idea being to maybe start a new venture. I checked around about how much “key man” much insurance was for someone like me two years on from a stage 3 colon cancer. For a decent start-up funding round of £2 million the cost was £70,000 a year. I figured no venture capitalist would like the idea of paying that much money for insurance and therefore this was a BIG showstopper.

A whopper showstopper.

Despite being only an “A” level private science tutor I had managed to get an invitation to an invitation only photonics Venture Capital event in Berlin. The idea was to put my toe in the water without doing any pitching, to scope out the lay of the land. I had also contacted the local business development offices. They were excellent and sent me shit loads of documentation together with details on government incentive schemes. I had arranged to meet the photonics development office and the Berlin local government. Efficient, yes they were. It was an entirely pleasurable experience.

When I heard the news about the insurance cost I cancelled my trip and wound up the company. I would have to wait for a few more years before the insurance premium dropped.

My UK based inquiries were more problematic. There was more English cock waving and I got the distinct impression that I was persona non grata or on the bargepole list. The people in Wales were helpful but not well funded.

A brief inquiry of the Delphic font of all wisdom at Google today has come up with Berlin – Cluster Optik und Photonik and Berlin Quantum. There are also links to Venture Capital und Private Equity Gesellschaften in Berlin.

In a dream earlier in the year Strasbourg came up. It is as close to Germany as you can get in France..

What I like most about the German vibe is the practicality. It is way less personal. Less drama and less perfidious Albion.

South Korea has also cropped up in dreams.

I don’t know South Korea at all. So that would be entirely new…There is a link via the old laser company to South Korea…

Watching some of the South Korean TV and movies on Netflix one can conclude that they are as mad as a bag of frogs under some circumstances…

Hmnn…

Quantum Reality and Movie Scripts – Dream Follow Up.

March 13, 2026March 13, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

What happens in the movies does not always correlate with normal measurable life upon the physical plane.

There is zero chance of me being employed in any research institute for quantum phenomena because I have no track record in this field and have not been institutionalized for the last two decades. I am not affiliated to any august institution or any big cheese. There is nobody who can in honesty act as a current referee for me. The only current publication record I have is a recent UK patent grant on a method for generating entangled photon pairs. The last academic paper in a peer reviewed journal was nearly twenty years ago.

No HR department could sanction employing me. I have clocked the car.

The ideas which are catalogued in the dream post earlier today may stand some measure of scrutiny by someone skilled in the art of quantum physics. It would not be for me to say. Maybe someone might take them and fly with them, they are not patented. It is unlikely anyone in that “field” is reading this blog.

Why do people study science in fields?

The science fiction of a being from outer space, say the Sirius system, landing on earth and writing patent applications in order to go home makes for a good movie. Such a being might not be treated well by society.

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The only way I might envisage getting funded for anything quantum related would be from the technology venture sector or some rich technology bro with whom I would have many big ideological differences. AWS are more likely to deliver a parcel with bathroom paint in it than to try to recruit me for a quantum research centre.

In a movie script I might go cap in hand to venture funders or business “angels.” I would get multiple knock backs until I found someone crazy enough to fund me….Then like Rocky I could get back into my training as a boffinacious boffin. There could even be a memorable theme tune. I could write and solve equations; I could align lasers and play with electronics.

With my memories of the quantum mechanics from the peak of the Atlantean civilisations we could revolutionise the world…

It is unlikely that Samsung are following my blog…

I do have to decide whether to cough up a few hundred quid to renew the patent.

Perhaps the best way to stop getting these “quantum” dreams is simply to let the patent lapse…

There is no motivator for me to explore any of the ideas brought up in dreams. It is not my job. It won’t make me any money…

Maybe the dreams are but a glimpse of an alternate reality, an alternate trajectory which hangs ghost like and un-manifested in the aether. They are perhaps of a path not taken, one of many, which has yet to fade completely insubstantial…

Far out man…

Recent Quantum Dreams up to 13-03-2026 – Dream Follow Up

March 13, 2026March 13, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

Here are collated a selection of quantum related passive nocturnal dreams had since March ’23.

Taken together they are probably a unique collection.

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South Korea – Quantum Perimeter – Dream 13-03-2026

Here is this morning’s dream the subject matter of which is out of the blue.

The dream opens on a bright sunny morning in a campus like estate with mid-rise modern buildings. It is “Singapore” clean and tidy. Many young people are milling around. They are smartly dressed and of mostly of East Asian appearance. The place is alive and buzzing. There is a sense of hurry and of purpose. From the signage and the writing thereupon I can tell that we are in South Korea at a hybrid university – business – technology campus of which Samsung is a major part. The logo is present but not dominant. The young people are well dressed and there is a sense of going to work. I have been invited there.

I notice that there is a lack of coffee shops and other outlets at ground level in the architect designed garden spaces. In the distance I can see a small kiosk come shop attached to the corner of one of the low rise buildings. I make my way there. For some reason I want to buy some cigarettes {I have not smoked in quite a while}. Looking through the window I cannot at first see any Marlboro Gold. I go inside the shop and ask if they have any Marlboro Gold. The man serving is an Asian man of a similar age to me. He is balding and has slightly unruly hair. He says in accent less {to me} English that he thinks he has some somewhere. I check my wallet and only have a limited amount of local currency. He finds some Marlboro Gold and brings them over to the counter. He gets the card payment machine and I make a payment using my dark blue French bank card. He then hands me the change, which is in the form of five gold coins, two of these are about four centimetres in diameter and three of these are about six centimetres. They fall on the counter in the form of the Olympic rings logo. The hue of the golden coins is slightly reddish like Welsh gold. This he says is the change and he hands me a packet of Marlboro Gold which contains fifty cigarettes. He says that these are all he has left, packets of fifty, and that they are especially for me. The coins morph into chocolate biscuits enclosed in a golden foil wrapper. I am able to eat the gold / golden covered biscuits if I want. I note again that there are five of them. I take out a velvet old school drawstring pouch-purse and pop the coins in. I pull the drawstring to and slip the bag in my pocket. I pick up the cigarettes and leave. There is a tremendous sense of confraternity with the man in the shop. We have known each other and do recognise each other. We bid farewell.

I am now upstairs at some trade delegation put on by the Korean government – university – incubator committee. It is top-notch with servers in traditional Korean costume. The buffet to one side is gourmet and presented with a marked attention to detail. There are a lot of “suits” there and the organisers are encouraging networking and deal making. I start having a conversation with a local big cheese and his wife. I am commenting that I find the spoken Korean language quite easy on the ear. It has a nice sound to it. In the dream I realise that I am actually talking Korean which the woman in particular finds very funny. She hides her mouth with her hand to chuckle. We return to English speaking. She wants to know if my wife is OK with the idea of moving to South Korea. I say that we have not discussed it yet but that the Korean woman can meet with her if she would like. There is a sense that they work to ensure the whole family is on board.

The scene changes and I am walking along a corridor in a low rise research institute. It has ceiling to floor glass windows and looks out onto the campus. The corridor leads to a  café come hang-out space. I am walking and talking with a man in a white coat who is some kind of prof / scientist. We are in the “Quantum Perimeter Institute” which is a specially funded new initiative here in South Korea. I know that in the basement there are a number of very high specification laser laboratories. To the side of the building is a purpose built refrigeration / cryogenic plant. It is high specification and can handle huge loads. We are talking about a theoretician, a recently recruited quantum specialist. The professor is suggesting that I work with him. I can add the experimental know how to his ideas.

In the dream I know that I am at the Quantum Perimeter Institute because of my left field and unorthodox thinking about some of the esoteric implications adjunct to quantum science.

We continue to walk down the corridor towards the smell of coffee.

The dream ends.


Quantum Modalities – Ai Tosh – Three Cats Dreaming 27-09-2025

Here is last night’s dreaming. The first part came from a sleep which lasted through to ~6 AM. Given the current state of my body this length is nigh on unheard of!

The dream starts with me pulling up by car at some huge generic modern science park with start-ups and conference facilities. There is much new building work evident. I park outside the conference centre and go in. The front desk directs me to the workshop on “Quantum Modalities”. It is in a suite of purpose built smaller conference rooms.

I arrive at the reception where there is a man and two female administrators. They are handing out badges on lanyards and marking attendance. The man is mid-thirties, the women slightly younger. They are professional and slick. The man takes me by the arm and leads me to a session. He explains that it is by way of think tank for kicking around ideas and concepts. No limits. He says that there are several teams, focus groups. He leads me to one team sat around a table arranged in a square, with a gap in the middle, like a square polo mint. The people are mostly men and all forty or younger. They are smart, well paid, vocal and energetic. My age and demeanour is in very marked contrast. The man introduces me to the group lead who is an Italian with excellent English. He is from the European grouping. He looks at my lanyard and welcomes me. He asks my background and I say that it is lasers and diverse types of optical spectroscopy. The others largely ignore me. I am not one of the “gang”.

A discussion starts about which modalities can be ruled out for optical quantum computing. These include infrared and solid state absorption due to decoherence. I say that my best bet is on background free ion detected stimulated Raman. They nod and slightly ignore my suggestion. I am after all the dinosaur. It is clear to me that they are fixated on the traditional notion of computing based around a microprocessor core and conventional binary type computation. Their thinking is generic and almost clone like in its similarity. They can only envision a static computer. I can see a visual image of a shiny microprocessor lit from above. It holds their minds. They go on largely talking among themselves. I get up and leave. Nobody notices.

In the main auditorium there is a talk on the future of AI. On stage is a smart young woman late thirties in a skirt suit with blue shirt. She is CEO grade. She has a headset with earphones and a microphone on, TED like. She has an accent from the USA bay area conurbation. She is speaking jargon buzzword tosh and not actually saying anything other than buzzword mantra. I know that the reason AI is popular is because the end of Silicon miniaturisation is nigh. They are reaching the atomic limits of processing. The industry is bricking it because they do not know what comes after Silicon. I find the talk yawn-some so I get up and leave.

I go to the bathroom and am very surprised that the large numbers on our “nanna” clock say 6 AM.

Back in bed I have to make a deliberate effort not to think about quantum modalities because I want to go back to sleep. I keep coming back to the idea that the “processor” cannot be a static thing. And that a totally genuinely radical re-think is needed to implement and optimise how to use quantum efficacy. They are currently at a conceptual dead end, blocked.

I manage to drift off.

The next segment has me arriving at another meeting this time held at a British governmental lab facility. It smacks of the tea and cake, white bread sandwiches canteen. It is an adjoint facility to a secure defence establishment like AWE. It is outside the fence. Nevertheless there are security {military police?} there. I go into reception. I am very early for the afternoon meeting I have been invited to. I am not on the lists that the reception has yet. I say that I am there for the afternoon meeting. He ushers me to a table where I can set up my laptop. I do this and get bored.

I go outside onto a grassy space with a slight slope. Lying on the upsloping ground I boot up the lap top. I am joined by the three cats, Bibi, Gandalf and Felix. Felix {now presumed dead} looks young and clean. The cats sit around the lap top and we are serene enjoying the outdoors in the autumn sun.

A young man and woman are nearby and they say hi. They are going back to London. I offer to give them a lift. I cannot be bothered to wait for the afternoon session. We head back towards the car. Bibi darts across the road stopping traffic. She is unhurt. Gandalf has climbed on my shoulders and Felix lies in the gutter playfully. The so-called wild cat offers me his belly to tickle which I do. I then pick him up and place him on my right shoulder so that I have a cat on each shoulder. Together with the couple we cross the road on a zebra crossing. We are joined by Bibi on foot. We make a slightly odd sight

We are nearing the site canteen and it is very busy. People are chatting on their way to lunch. Bellies are rumbling. There is a hub-bub. I try to remain inconspicuous looking to avoid anyone I might know. There is nobody. We make it to the car park and we all get into the car, three cats, me and the young couple.

The dreaming ends.


Investor Incognito – Quantum Modules – Sociopolitical Problems Dream 19-08-2025

Here is last night’s dreaming sequence.

“If you want my future, forget my past
If you wanna get with me, better make it fast”

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The dream opens in a splendid mansion and grounds of Italianate design situated somewhere like Lake Como or Lake Maggiore. It is upper class, rich and very swanky. It is an investor event for high net worth individuals and venture capital (VC) funds of diverse type and scale. It is late evening drawing into night. There is a string quartet and finger food. Presentations will be given in an outdoors setting once it has become fully dark. There is a stage and seating. Seating is round “ten” seater tables. In the meantime a pre-event wine tasting is going on. It feels European.

I am working incognito as one of the wine waiters. I am in black and whites with a white wine apron. I am opening a bottle of vintage red wine and offering to taste before decanting. I then fill a decanter with the rest of the wine. The idea being that they also taste after half an hour. I pour a taster around the table. Each in turns swirls the bright red wine and tastes. I move onto the next table who are trying an ice cold New Zealand white. In general the interaction is professional but I can tell that I am “staff” and not one of them. I am of no significance. I am not the main event.

Heading back to the kitchen an American woman who is a VC accidentally bangs in to me, she is partially drunk and is very rude to me. I apologise even though it is her fault. She is brash and convinced of her own importance. The event suggests to me that these are not the kind of people I seek.

The scene changes and I am at a booth in a trade show and technology event. On the table in front of me is a quantum module. It is a slot in for a 19 inch electronics frame wider unit. I have the side panel off the module. In it I can see a photonic circuit processor which is air-cooled by fan. Connected to it are several tight circle bundles of fibreoptic cable. These are cable tied and attached to the motherboard. A number of them lead to optical-optical low loss interconnects on the rear of the module. To the top of the board is a diode pumped fibre laser which I know to be single mode. The whole unit is a modular quantum logic gate, a plug and play module for an in-principle demonstrator. With me in the booth are Geri Horner and her husband. As a hobby he has led the engineering team and has managed to attract some not standard funding from Red Bull. I replace the side panel to the module and screw it in using a jeweller’s screw driver. I slot the module into the wider 19 inch parent rack. I then mount the whole unit into an electronics rack and attach the computer interface. Geri is excited and waiting for people to visit our booth. There is a Red Bull logo. The module is a large-scale building block prototype for a room temperature quantum computer. I have had to seek non-standard funding, hence Geri and Red Bull.

The scene changes and I am in my workshop / shed on top of a low rise several storey building. To my surprise a text message arrives on my ‘phone. The message asks “why, why am I packing it in?” I am very surprised that there is both a ‘phone and a text message in the dream. { A very rare thing} As I am dealing with this surprise a man appears at the door of my shed. He is older than me, very English and of the UK science hierarchy. I let him in. He wants to know why I am dropping this line of research / investigation. I explain to him that the establishment does not accept me and has difficulty interacting with me because I am not usual. I do not belong to any famous company / institution. He does not believe me. I explain to him in more depth and he starts to get offended imagining that I am attacking the entire science hierarchy. I ask him if he is personally offended. He says, yes.

“Now do you see the sort of thing I am up against. How resistant to me people are?”

“Yes, OK , I get the idea.”

He then asks me to hang fire for a while. He wants to know who I am working with. I explain that it is just me. On my bookshelf he see texts on superconducting and quantum circuits. He says that he might be able to get someone to work with me. I doubt it. There is no money.

I say to him that there is little which can be done. It is as it is. He does not like this.

The dream ends and I have the Spice Girls “Wannabe” to mind.


Quantum Telepathy – High Technology – Telekinesis Dream 12-06-2025

We watched the Korean language film Mission: Cross last night. Here is last night’s dream.

The dream starts in a highly secretive high technology laboratory. There are optical tables, optics, lasers and racks of electronics. Around the lab are semiconductor production and testing facilities. The complex is largely underground and the lab is equipped with seismometers. The room has no windows and is lit artificially.

I can see a young light skinned Asian man with jet black hair. He is of Chinese or Korean origin, not Japanese. The sense is that we are in Korea, or Singapore of China. He is casually dressed in jeans and a white polo shirt. He is attached to some electrodes at his temples. In the room wearing white cleanroom lab coats are a mixture of men and women, similarly Asian and in their thirties and forties. The concentration is intense. They are speaking an oriental language I do not understand. I can see through his eyes. They are exhorting him, particularly one man who is in charge. He is getting in the face of the young man telling him to move the experimental subject with his mind. He is not wearing a lab coat.

The young man is getting annoyed and tells him to back off. I hear the Asian words and only understand them in English directly from his mind. We somehow know each other from before. There is a printed circuit board with short wire connectors which plug in via a gold pin contact. There are pins at each end. The young man, at amazing speed, telekinetically detaches the wire and fires it at the backside of his tormentor. One end of the wire passes through the trousers and into the buttocks. One can see a red wire embedded in the man by gold pin, dangling about a foot in length with another gold pin contact shining in the light. The man winces in pain and surprise. The man backs off.

The young man and I know that the best way to gather statistically reliable data for “tele” properties is to use the interaction of telepathy on quantum entangled states of good coherence time. These could be optically prepared entangled ion trap states in a quantum-ion “memory” or with entangled photon pairs.  These could be free space or in fibre high fidelity photon pairs. Because entanglement is information rather than matter such an interaction would be telepathic and not telekinetic. By enhancing the decoherence rate of prepared state with telepathic effort it should be possible to prove that the effort has caused an outcome. This would be the first part of quantum telepathy which should enable further studies after the scepticisms have been overcome by some initial data. He and I both know that this is the best way. Decoherence is easier than entanglement.

The dream ends.


Molecular Quantum Computing Dream 10-07-2024

Here is this morning’s dream.

The dream starts in the middle of a city. I am to attend a meeting on molecular quantum computing. It is partially at my behest. In the meeting are several people who I once knew around 18 years ago. We are sat roughly in a circle behind two seater tables.

I say that in its current form quantum computing is very environmentally hostile because of the energy needed to build and cool. There is a murmur of scoffing. Ian says that I am right and reels off some figures in terms of tonnage of carbon dioxide. Others concur.

I explain that here, with our hundred trees and land, we are approximately carbon neutral.

I know that the people at the meeting are humouring me and that they are highly sceptical.

I say that history shows that the machines at the early stage of any technology cycle are very different from those of the technology which emerges.

It is likely that quantum computing will become more biological. A way will be found to overcome the high energy burden. It will involve molecular qubits.

In the dream I make a note to re-read a paper by XXX.

There will be some way as yet unimagined to open up a new way of thinking, a more organic neural form of quantum computing.

The meeting disperses, sceptical.

I go outside with Ant and he points up at a huge crane; they are doing some optical fibre communication experiment on the crane. He expects be to be impressed.

I wander off towards the tube station.

Dream ends.


Quantum Key Distribution Dream 08-09-23

Here is this morning’s dream…

The dream starts with an internet Skype like call. I am speaking with an ex-student of mine. I can see him on the lap-top screen and he can see me. We are talking and there is a large amount of background noise and his image is juddering. I can see that he is flying a helicopter over some mountains. One of his friends has recently died and he would like to come visit to talk about this with me. He is on holiday with his father in the Swiss-French alps. I agree and he says that he will be here in a few days’ time.

 I think it odd that he is flying a helicopter but knew that his family are very wealthy.

He turns up with his father and I invite them in. We start talking about how he buried his friend. There were not many people at the ceremony and he said that it was very strange seeing someone his own age in a coffin. He had touched the coffin after it was placed in the grave as did his friend’s mother. She had freaked out a bit and he was concerned for her. I say that death touches all of us in different ways and that before grief there can often be denial. It sounds like that is what is happening. I say that I need to go and fetch something from outside.

As I come back into the house, I note the father’s car. It is a top of the range Mercedes convertible, bespoke even. I notice on the back of it the letters QKD. In the dream they stand out for me.

I go back inside. I say to the father, “Is that one of the new Quantum Key enabled prototypes?”

“Yes, it is fully Quantum Key enabled and if I need to make secure transactions, I can do it from the car while I am en route.”

I am impressed. I heard about these but have not seen one. The implication is that the father is very wealthy indeed a special client of the banks.

The ex-student says that I should tell his father about my patent applications.

I say to the father that I have two old patents concerning EUV and one for an entangled pair photon source. I say that this device could be integrated into a Quantum Key Distribution device.

His ears prick up. He reaches into a briefcase and pulls out a piece of paper. The paper is an email. On the top is his email address together with that of one of his technical people and his lawyer.

He says to get in contact with them with more details.

His ‘phone rings and he starts to speak animatedly in French.

The dream ends and I know that it is pointing towards looking again at Quantum Key Distribution.


InAs Molecular Beam Epitaxy Dream – 07-03-2024

This is about as far out of the blue as one can get…

The dream starts in a semiconductor clean room. The laboratory is large scale and there are a number of molecular beam kits together with fume hoods and ancillary diagnostic equipment. I am talking with a dark-haired man who has a feint Irish accent. It is his facility.

“We have asked you here to help us with our InAs growth program”, he says.

I say that I will start to read up on it. To my mind’s eye come various physical review type journal articles.

He says, “that is good, but we would like you to get involved with the practical side of things.”

He introduces me to a young man with fair hair. He opens the load lock to the molecular beam epitaxy (MBE) kit and introduces an etched wafer. He closes the load lock. The chamber pumps down as we wait for the wafer to outgas. When ready it is transferred to the growth chamber.

In the growth chamber we use the in-situ atomic force microscope to examine the morphology. The wafer needs to anneal at high temperature under an Arsenic over pressure in order to make it smoother and to clean up the atomic height step edges.

The man opens the Arsenic flux and starts to ramp up the temperature.

The lab dog, a spaniel, starts running around like a mad one and goes into the communal seating area.

From the lab there is a large ceiling to floor window which looks out onto a village style crossroads. I see a red bus go past and a woman on a bicycle.

I say to the man that not a lot happens here and that I had forgotten how much waiting there was in MBE growth. Growing one atomic layer per second takes a while.

They are interested in InAs as a quantum dot optical emitter and are thinking of trying to get quantum dot behavior.

In the dream I knew that this is a follow on from yesterday.

Dream ends…

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InAs is a iii-v semiconductor. It therefore highlights the jewels 3,5 and 8.

*  In real life around twenty years ago I examined several Ph.D. theses on InAs MBE growth with inter alia Scanning Tunnelling Microscopy, quantum dots, luminescence and FTIR studies.


Quantum Confinement in Water Clusters Dream 14-12-23.

I am just recalling a dream from the other night.

In the dream I am examining clathrate-like structures of water clusters and considering them from a permutation-inversion point group basis. These structures are icosahedra surrounded by larger icosahedra. They are fluxional yet stable. They are by way of proton traps and the allowed energy levels for the proton wave functions are confined and therefore quantised. They are by way of trapped protons, confined.  More than one proton may be found in these traps and as a consequence the proton wave-functions are entangled. Because the potential barriers in the hypersurfaces are low, geometrical tunnelling occurs. Or rather it can be explained that way.

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I have found a way to make these structures and isolate them at liquid nitrogen like temperatures. They are a new class of material, proton quantum traps.

In the adjacent building there is a new kind of electron microscope which operates at very low beam currents and yet offers atomic resolution. It does not damage. It is equipped with cryo-transfer. I can walk across the corridor between my building and into his. He is in the basement and is of Chinese like appearance. The sense is that we are in Singapore.

I get across the corridor but do not have the access code to enter the building. I call down to him and he speaks to security who let me access the building. I go to the lift to get down to the basement. Again, I do not have the security swipe card needed. The ‘phone no longer works because the building is shielded for scientific purposes. The impinging EM radiation is kept to as low as possible. I look at the liquid nitrogen Dewar in which my samples are. I look at the security measures.

I cannot get down to the basement because I am not allowed. I do not have clearance. The structures will melt and there is nothing I can do about it.

Dream ends…


Qubit Coherence Time Dream 20-03-2023

This dream came after watching Roger Penrose discus “before the big bang” on YouTube. He suggested that in a thermalized black body compliant universe evidenced by the cosmic microwave background energy spectrum where E=hν = mc2, time or inverse time, frequency, does not exist in the absence of matter. “Time” can be curved to “before” the big bang of our current universe. Similarly at an infinitely expanded universe full only of radiation, photons, time again has no meaning without mass.

The dream starts in the refreshment area or bar off a hall full of poster presentations at a “perimeter” conference on quantum and quantum computing. I am talking with a “famous” prof in his early forties and he is holding court to some post docs and post grads. He is skinny with a beard and unruly hair. He is white. As far as he is concerned, I am a nobody.

I say to him that if I have understood it correctly the biggest drawback for quantum computing is qubit coherence time and thereby quantum fidelity. He says yes.

I say that a qubit is a counter-entropic state artificially manufactured in matter in many systems. In these matter based systems tremendous cooling is required to prevent coupling to the nearby thermal bath states which tend to bring about dephasing and lack of fidelity for the prepared qubit. He agrees.

I say that is why they need fuck off big fridges to get close to absolute zero, which is again a counter entropic state when viewed more than locally. He agrees.

That dephasing happens on a temperature and proximity dependent time scale.

I say that thermodynamics is a property of matter and hence time, without matter entropy as no meaning, nor does thermodynamics.

I ask him why nobody is pursuing fast or ultrafast time domain quantum computing? He does not reply.

I say to him if the prepared qubit state is addressed before dephasing occurs, we can use time to outwit or outpace thermalization to bath. Time domain quantum computing could be the answer.

He nods.

I say that the other problem stems from the cycle time of write to zero of the matter involved in the prepared qubits. It should be possible to use a second pulse similar to the state preparation one to reset the qubit clock on a hundreds of megahertz laser repetition rate. We then have a prepare and subsequent write to zero even if the qubit state has been used or partially used in computation. The matter is then ready for us to contravene entropy by writing a qubit.

As the dream ends, I think that it is a fair way from Guru Rinpoche…


Tales of the Unexpected – Tarot – Dream Follow Up

March 12, 2026March 12, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

I first knowingly came across tarot in this lifetime in the UK TV series “Tales of the Unexpected”. It was one of the programmes we watched as a family when I was a teenager. We changed the title to “Tales of the Fairly Predictable” because it was usually possible to guess the endings / twist before the denouement. The cards appeared in the titles.

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As a rule of thumb I am less scared of witchy and occult things than most people. I used to buy 18+ horror comics when I was around 12. It did result in one recurring nightmare in which I was gobbled up by a tree and trapped therein for ever after. As a greasy and acne faced teenager the librarian at the local library was very happy to help me source books on witchcraft and witch finders. I read a great deal. I like a good occult / exorcism / demonic possession type of film. Story telling is best done without too many special effects and with good music. CGI looks like CGI and spoils things. Just mentioning the word exorcism can give some people the heebie-jeebies. I am not bad at telling stories and we used to scare the house servant when he was baby-sitting us in Zambia. I would talk of an evil magic-man rumoured to be walking the housing estate. Usually my dad would give him a lift home to the township. Which is more scary a magic-man or six pints of lager behind the wheel?

It is at least to me interesting how much the Easterly Jewel forbearance has played in my life. Time and again I have been asked to practice forbearance. Śāntideva in the Bodhisattvacaryāvatāra has a whole chapter devoted to this spiritual virtue. I have on occasion been described as patient. This was not something I exhibited in my late twenties and early thirties, it was before then and is since.

In terms of Le Pendu, tarot 12, when there is nothing you can do to influence things all you can do is hang out and maybe whistle a merry tune. If it is a “not my monkeys, not my circus” scenario there is no point in sticking your nose in. Unsolicited advice is less popular than a dose of penicillin resistant gonorrhoea. Even solicited advice is rarely popular.

Over the years it has become clear to me that I have a predilection for the clarity of the East and the process of time. After dreaming it is my second preference.

This morning’s dream is pointing at not rushing…

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It is evoking many of the Jewels of the East, a sense of measuring and decision, paring anything unnecessary looking at only that which is written in the book of fate. It is about taking time… measuring.

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“According to the Anthology of the Patriarchal Hall, Bodhidharma left the Liang court in 527 and relocated to Mount Song near Luoyang and the Shaolin Monastery, where he “faced a wall for nine years, not speaking for the entire time”, his date of death can have been no earlier than 536. Moreover, his encounter with the Wei official indicates a date of death no later than 554, three years before the fall of the Western Wei.”

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Patience is a supposed root of the Zen patriarch Bodhidharma. We arrived here early 2019 maybe there are a few more years before I am ready to leave my cave.

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The Notion of Dreamyoga and Dreaming Retreats – Dream Follow Up

March 6, 2026March 6, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

If you type dream yoga into Google this web site does not come up. There are other sites, some refer to Tibetan Yogas of Dreams and many talk about Lucid Dreaming – hey man…far out…

The purpose of any yoga is, in the limit, union. It is not to get a hot body or look good. Nor is it to have trippy experiences on the astral plane.

From time to time I get mentions in my dreams about me running courses, holding retreats or even starting an ashram. I know how to organise and run courses. I have organised half a dozen international retreats and many more team and personal development courses. I can do this from venue selection through course programme to menu. I can accommodate space and time for daily prayers for practising Muslims. I can cater plant based. Running a well-oiled course is well within my capability if no longer my budget. I lack experience in the minefield of LBGTQIA+. I would probably fuck up and offend someone. I could take advice.

From an organisational point of view I could do courses.

From the point of view of getting anyone to attend, it is unlikely. I can’t be arsed to do the time-honoured thing of self-promotion via book and social media. I am not affiliated to any big cheese and therefore have no lineage provenance. I am not famous…I cannot claim power by association to any guru or famous person.

If I did a course nobody would know that it was on and nobody would care.

So, we have another instance of things cropping up in dreams which are possible but which are not practical or probable.

In my view the purpose of dreaming is to enable contact with one’s Soul and then allow it to advise upon how to live life. One then surrenders to the Soul and stops trying to force life into to some shoe-horned ersatz of what we think it must be or are led by peer pressure to believe life is all about.

That sounds simple enough. It is however a total radical overhaul of living and will inevitably change life direction. This is not a tweak.

It is not a nice massage on a beach in Thailand or a colonic irrigation with concentrated and shaman blessed pomegranate juice. It will not aide your gut biome one bit nor increase your Insta and TikTok follower number.

It will make you feel shit if you do it properly because there will be a huge conflict between what you want life to be and how your Soul, your dreamer, wishes to learn. The degree of resistance will be very high and you will not be happy…you will be in a kind of internal war for months and years.

To abandon control to your dreamer is very scary for a so-called rational person. Once this has happened life becomes significantly less stressful and more unpredictable.

To dabble is not to seek union and dabbling will not bring any enlightenment nor any lightening of the load.

If you want to feel nice learn stretchy yoga and go on expensive wellness retreats in nice spa locations, dip into your wallet or bitcoin stash for some exotic destinations.

It would take me many hours of conversation with elements of challenge therein to find out “where” someone might be. This will never be “where” they might think they are…

As the last dream suggests people might have ideas and notions about what a dreaming retreat might look like and entail.

It is likely to differ markedly from my version…

If your dreamer is insistent on you working with me, then in the fullness of time you might be wise to listen. Otherwise your dreamer will make life uncomfortable for you in ways you don’t imagine and on a logarithmic scale.

Within this logic there is no need for me to organise any retreats. Sooner or later our paths will cross.. {again?}

As the current life trajectory is evolving I cannot see any path which leads me to opening or running a retreat centre in the foreseeable future. Given my life experience I would, in any case, be strongly disinclined so to do…

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Pourquoi les grands fromages ?

March 5, 2026 ~ quantumdreamer ~ Leave a comment

There is a very real and obvious disconnect between my dreams and my day to day existence. In my dreams there are a lot of big cheeses, people whom society might consider important.

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In reality I am not in contact with any of these, nor any august institutions nor Buddhist temples. It has been a very long time since Charles and Camilla invited me round for a garden party.

Viewed from one angle there is a major non sequitur between my dream life and DIY reality.  I don’t hang out with anyone except the wife.

I don’t really have any sensible explanation for why I should be dreaming of big cheeses in my dreams. I have not met anyone who is even a small to moderate size cheese for a long time, two decades.

So there is a good question:

Pourquoi les grands fromages ?

To which I have no answer…

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