Tables are the dreaming symbols for need to address and perhaps try to solve problems. There is no obvious explicable cause in the context of my proximal life circumstances why I should be dreaming about tables and ex-colleagues. Unless there is some far-fetched weird shit going on it makes no sense. Organisations can have problems with heretics. So, the “problems” of the organisations quickly become problems for the heretic. Galileo was not “top of the pops”.

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I am no insider in that context of institution and the big city remains far from our rural living. I have no personal problems concerning them. Maybe there is some weird karmic stuff they need to address?

Problems can be unilateral. What one person perceives as a problem is a problem only for them. Problems can be group or national. People can turn their agenda into problems for others.

I personally do not like hearing President Trump’s voice, it drones on. It lacks joy, warmth and humility. It is almost invariably confrontational and reeks of a victim mentality, “it is not fair!! He is ceding increased paranoia into the US psyche. He blames anyone but himself and Americans. He is forever banging on about deals and getting people round the table. Is it a magic table? All the “brilliant” deals so far have had no detail attached; they look like PR deals. Exploiting minerals in Ukraine needs someone to finance and sink a mine, then to build a processing plant. What venture capital would bet hundreds of millions in a war torn country? It would take years. It is a part of Trump’s magical thinking.

Putin is probably enjoying winding him up and seeing what tirades come out of his mouth / social media next. They may even have an ongoing betting circle in the Kremlin. I’ll put a hundred Roubles on the word “nasty” and fifty on “crazy” being used.

In my book there are two current problems. The most significant one is what is possible to do to ease the problems with my buggered hips and the induced back pain. The related problem of garden maintenance is an effect of that cause. In my universe that is where my needs to address end. By the end of the month, I may have some clues as to whether a change of tack is needed and I have already started to investigate other avenues. I am already mentally prepared to do very little on my legs and have priced mobility scooters provisionally. Arthroplasty is not a given. I may be waiting a long time, there may be conditions. It might not be possible. I could have to live with things pretty much as they are.

Of course, we have other health concerns ongoing but these do not need, for the moment, fresh intervention.

My dreams have pointed time and again at the “wrong end of the stick” interpretation / phenomenon and at people being angry with me and projecting that and enmity at me. If the dreams point at any kind of reality, that is not my problem. It is not pleasant but there is nothing I can do about it.

It is my experience that institutional modus operandi rarely changes. If people are trying to “solve” a problem using the same methods and level of consciousness that created it, they are doomed to fail. It belongs in the same shit different day category.  Repeating the same things and expecting different results has been defined as insane.

People talk to the monkey and not the organ grinder, so to speak. They try to get others to do their dirty work so that they can keep a distance.

I see a future in which I am wrapped up indoors, not going out much. I have already started noting how poor public disabled access is in France. I watch people having difficulty walking and using sticks. I am more attuned. I cannot stop myself looking in a detached manner at scenarios.

WTF, if anything, is going on in London is not my problem. There is absolutely zero that I can do about it…

Weird…