nuance – Dreamyoga

One can find Jiddu Krishnamurti quoted as saying that his secret is that he does not mind what happens. This implies a lack of any goal orientation, preferred outcome, expectation or attachment. He may have omitted, “I do not mind what happens to me.” If one lives in the eternal now there is no concern for past or future, simply moment. One is not chained by the manacles of “what if” or of “if only.” There is a confidence that one can handle everything which life and the universe offers, free of prejudice. Even if that seems unpleasant and challenging. One is confident in ability to improvise and cope.

I have talked about my medical conditions here, which would be rather dramatic for many. It is just a fact of life for me. OMG spinal surgery may be involved… He has seen a brain surgeon and is getting a cancer check up in May….

There is not too much drama in my mind. The pain can be a tad boring. I don’t think there is an exact translation into French. Monotonous is probably close but does not have the nuance.

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I am not worried about what if anything happens to whatever it is that I may or may not know. The thought forms exist now and could be accessed in the web of life in due course. If and when the time is due. I don’t currently see a use for me. I am surplus.

The dreaming takes time, decades sometimes.

I have had the first hint, in the dream this morning, that the time in France maybe drawing to a close. There has not been much for me here. The French are not very pro-active. I am in no way integrated. There will be no significant material plane impact should I leave. Only the medics and the checkout ladies will notice.

I have a few more medical appointments programmed. Then, soon, it will be the big summer holidays. Unless the colonoscopy shows anything sinister, that will probably be it until the Autumn. I will get my asthma medication renewed in July. I am not anticipating any solution, any diagnosis and treatment that will result in significant alleviation of symptoms. It looks to me that I dotting and T crossing data collection is occurring.

Following on from the dream we have been looking at on-line estate agents again. Affordability coupled with relative southerly locations limits us to probably South and West Wales in the UK. The property situation in France remains constipated. We need proximity and communications to university grade hospitals.

The problem is that the world is swirling. The web of life has been whacked unnecessarily by orange-boi. The Nikkei and the Hang Seng could tank further in a few short hours. This is a factor which is against any house moving.

A house move is the dreaming symbol for adopting a new view of the world. Here it is expansive, it has gotten too big. Perhaps the need is simply to shrink and consolidate.

We shall see what the dreaming suggests. It will influence our decisions significantly. The dreaming will show us the way.

I don’t mind what happens – the dreams will suffice.

This dream is in two parts.

I am with prof. AR, we are setting up an event for young people, Ph.D. students and post docs. We are in a seminar room. I am going to give a presentation. I turn on my lap top and cannot find the PowerPoint document. It is on my other laptop. Prof. AR thinks she might have a copy on hers. We set up a projector and her media guy connects the lap top and the projector. It takes ages to get set up. When the file opens it is not my presentation. I gesticulate by a finger across the throat to cut. Which he does.

I turn to the audience and say, “It is clear that one needs to make sure one has the presentation. Step one.”

Everyone laughs.

I explain that because of where I find myself, I cannot detrimentally affect my career, because I no longer have one. The only way I can affect my career irrespective, is positively.

I ask them, “In this day and age, is it still ok to have ambition? Because they have their careers ahead of them, what do they need to do to push on?”

Someone in the audience says, “you can’t speak to us like that, it is old fashioned dinosaur speak.”

“Why not”, I reply “It is your future not mine?”

“It is not right; it is insensitive and wrong for our generation!”

I turn my back and simply walk out of the room without speaking. The room is silent because this is so unexpected.

The scene changes and I am at a very big academic conference. There are many big cheese scientists there. I am in the foyer looking for my book. I can’t find it. Weirdly I am due to speak at the conference dinner. I need some excerpts from my book. I can’t find it.

I go into the conference dinner it is plush and expensive.

I am sat on one of the side tables.

It is my turn to speak on ways of thinking. That thinking needs to be synthetic and joined up as opposed to divisive and separative. I walk over to top table where there is a big cheese prof. who I do not recognise.

I argue with him that black and white thinking is archaic and that there needs to be many shades of grey and nuance in the debate.

He gets agitated and combative.

I turn my back and slowly walk out of the room. You could hear a pin drop.

Dream ends,

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Dreaming – I Don’t Mind What Happens

Miscommunication – Woke – Big Cheeses – Walking Away Dream -17-07-2024.