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A warrior knows that he is waiting and what he is waiting for; and while he waits he wants nothing and thus whatever little thing he gets is more than he can take.

Carlos Castaneda

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Around this time of year I tend to look at the numerology for the upcoming year. I have been putting this off, not feeling motivated so do. This partially because of a strong feeling of waiting, of being in some kind of holding pattern. There are a number of other things which I might do, but these too are kind of in abeyance because I am waiting.

On the health front my recovery is possibly slightly ahead of “normal” schedule. The physio last night has already introduced the notion of end of sessions. I am walking, by and large, like a biped without crutches.

The weird thing is that Tibetan vibe. It is hanging around at the periphery of consciousness. It was particularly strong around 3 AM last night, like something was going down. In the previous post I speculated. Should anything materialise along those lines it would be a game changer and make for an unusual 2026.

Being earthed and grounded I can see a number of small jobs I can do in the garden. There are some moles which need to be trapped here in the far West of France. I told the gardener yesterday that I might trap them soon. There are some plants which need to be cut back and a plumbing job upstairs. The shops will be shut for Christmas tomorrow.

One trajectory is simple and uncomplicated.

There could be other low probability trajectories which may come in by way of a quirk of fate, a curveball.

The feeling is that something is up. I am waiting for something, I do not know what. Whatever it is, it is not my move.

I have had feelings like this before, a hint of incoming, and nothing has materialised. On occasion stuff has happened.

If you are powerless like me, there is very little in my power. I can do very little. My influence and impact on the world is tiny and local.

A bit weird though this feeling of waiting…