Yesterday I sat in the office of a nice younger woman who was doing a pre-operative anaesthesia check, to ascertain if I was medically fit to have my operation in a few weeks time. She was very professional. As I knew from the data I had, I was fit. But they, quite rightly, have the yes/no decision.
I mentioned that I had some problems sleeping after my last operation and she suggested it was about anxiety which it wasn’t. She also said that there is not much they can do. Which is most likely true. In the grand scheme of things it is no big deal. I’ll take the small hit of a couple of weeks discomfort for months of being able to walk more freely and with much reduced pain. It is not a complicated equation to solve.
At that point I realized that the was no point in trying to engage her, or any other medical professional for that matter, about some of the phenomena I have had around anaesthesia. They just want to reassure you so they can slice and dice. They think you are anxious and need a comforting, “there, there, never mind, don’t you worry”.
Bashing your head against a brick wall is not entirely wise.
Every time I have tried to engage one of them in discussion it has been ignored or deflected. In my case this has the opposite effect of reassurance. I calculate that I will have to take a risk with them being wholly ignorant of what advanced “off the map” meditation does. It is beyond their expertise and they do not want to cede expertise and control.
Maybe they do know better than me…
The last time I had anaesthesia my waking dream in recovery was this:
Tibetan Temple Dream click here.
When I had the cancerous piece of colon out I had an out of body experience / dream of me looking down at the operating theatre. There was a feeling afterward of something not being mentioned.
I have no real option. If I want to have the operation I have to take the calculated risk of some other phenomenon inexplicable to modern science.
There are things which are beyond current medical school…I reckon…
What will transpire next time??
We shall see…
Sometimes you know there is no point in trying to broach a subject…
Dreamyoga 